Saying Yes

A close friend and mentor many years ago told me that she and her partner always chose to say YES to any opportunities that came up, no matter what.  At the time I didn't really think that was smart, because what if it was something you really didn't want to do?  What if it was with stupid people?  (This was before I figured out there really are no stupid people in the world.)  There was this whole list of "what if's" that went through me.  But looking at their life and business, it seemed effortless, abundant, fun, and like they really were on THE path they were meant to be on.


Now, I say YES.

It's not always easy, believe me.


But I figure I have nothing to lose.

Except maybe my ego getting a little bruised once in a while.

But that is why we are here on a human/spiritual path .... to learn.

In January of this year I committed myself to saying Yes to every opportunity that came up.  Even if that means, "Yes, I will feel it out if it is a fit for me" and then politely declining.  Saying Yes even if it pulls me out of my comfort zone.  Saying Yes even when my head was saying, "What the heck?!" (Well, it used other expletives than "heck" really.)  I am committed to following my intuition, my gut instincts.

For example:  someone who shall remain nameless asked me a few months ago about doing readings at her shop.  Ha!  Every bone in my body said, "No freakin' way.  Tooooo hard!"  I am not a "reader."  I am intuitive, I get intuitive "hits", I get feelings and energies, and those can't always be translated into words.  But I said, "Yep" and left it as "When the time is right it'll happen."  (That too is saying YES.)

So then when in the span of a week, two other people asked me about doing readings and another BIG opportunities to do "READINGS" came up, I just shook my head and said Yes.


And then wanted to puke.


(Let's be honest!)

Even as I got to the event to do readings, I wasn't sure what the heck I was thinking by saying Yes.  It felt like a big ol' challenge of pushing my buttons (being put on the spot, having to actually speak, AND having to pull intuitive/psychic information out into real words).

BUT ... it all turned out exactly as it was supposed to.  And I actually had fun.

!!!!

And I'll go back again.

No matter what we do in life, even if we think it is happening TO us (which it's NOT), we chose it ALL and we said Yes.  (But that's another blog lesson for later.)


So I figure we may as well just agree from the get-go, because we already knew it would come to this, right?

Even if we think we "fail" at it or something goes wrong or it just doesn't work out, that is perfect.  The act of saying Yes allows you to open up to more freedom, joy, abundance, and yes, learning deep hard lessons at times too.  But it's okay.  It helps us learn and grow and be fully who we are right now.

AND I have a BIG and VERY much outside of my comfort level (read "wealthy suburban housewives") - event tomorrow that another friend dragged encouraged me into with her.  It forced me to step up my business to a whole new level (and it all happened on a new moon last week).

But I am TRUSTING and jumping with my eyes and heart wide open.

So if you hear someone screaming as they fall from the sky tomorrow evening, that'll be me.

Ha!

No wait, if that happens I even said "Yes" to that too.

Onward and upward, y'all!

Big energy shifts!

Anyone else feeling so NOT grounded yesterday and today?  I feel like I have a low-grade headache, kind of like I am going through coffee withdrawl (though I am NOT!), and even a few advil didn't touch it.  I keep drinking a ton of water and taking really deep breaths, though I'm not sure either is helping.  LOL  It feels like there are spaces being shaken loose that have not seen the light of day for eons.  There is this vision in my head of God picking me up by one leg and shaking me upside down like a rag doll, waiting for something to drop out.  Whatever They want to drop out, I am willing to let it go!  And yet at the same time, there is this deep inner blossoming that is so slight and subtle, but I can feel it being watered long and slow.  I actually get glimpses of what the energy will be like this summer and I get almost giddy.

I know a lot of this has to do with earthquakes and volcanoes, oh my!

BUT ... these three updates have helped me in the past few days:

http://www.spiritual-transformation.net/Musings/  Dee's astrology insights are so helpful.

http://transmissionsfromhome.blogspot.com/2010/04/recent-radical-cellular-healing.html   The Arcturians are my buddies, so this makes sense to me.


http://www.emergingearthangels.com/2010/wings4.20.2010.html  And Karen ... oh dear Karen.  Always right on.

So keep on rockin' and keep breathing!

friendships

Make new friends
Keep the old
Some are Silver
and the others Gold

This song that I clearly remember singing in my Brownies troop as a child keeps running through my head.  It is just an indication of thoughts I am working through right now.  I do have silver friends and gold friends, as well as purpley spotted friends and oooh you're very gray friends.  All of them are deeply appreciated and loved.  Over my 40 years I have met amazing people and had amazing friendships, some of which lasted 2 weeks, others were just a few years, and god bless them I do actually have good friends that I have known for close to 35 years. 

My thoughts this weekend have been about why some friendships work and some don't, or why some last as long as they do and others just fizzle out.  There is no rule book we are given as children about how to be friends; it's just taught by example and by trial and error.  I'm sure this is all perfect, but sometimes I wonder if we as adults, especially as women adults, hold out on telling each other the truth about what it's really like to have close women friends.  We can be so supportive and encouraging and fun and playful, and in the next second, be catty, gossipy, and just plain stupid. 

It is sometimes easier to just be with yourself than other people.

But it can suck being alone too.

I am so blessed for the friends in my life right now.  I seriously would have lost my mind had two or three of them not been there to listen to me and support me in the past six months.  Not only with my mom's health issues, but with big huge energetic and life changes, during which I also lost a few really good friends.  It's been really interesting to me to see who has stuck around, asked about my mom's status, offered support while I'm freaking out about another friends actions, been on the phone with me after I had a major emotional breakdown (again), asked if they can come do healing work with my mom, or even just asked the simple question of "How are you?" 

Or not. 

People are made of different strengths and gifts of how they friendship.  The people that I thought would be right there "on the front lines" have vanished, others have stepped up, others have their own life drama's happening, and still others are exactly the same.  My expectations have been low, maybe as a brace so I don't get hurt even more.  It all makes me feel so selfish at times, thinking about why the friendships changed or what was "wrong" with me that they left my life, but then again, I know part of my journey is to actually care about myself before others.

The grief of losing multiple friends at once has complications I never expected.  Being caught in the middle, not really having many answers, and circling around the lost friends is hard on one's heart.  It might take a long time to trust again.  But I'm dealing by going higher for a new perspective and bigger picture insights and learning to just surrender and be more open with the current amazing friends (and you all know who you are).

I realize this blog may push a few friends away or ruffle a few feathers, but I have needed to say it for myself.  I know the right people will stick around.  It's not a pity party by any means.  There is just a hope that by writing I can heal some things for myself, possibly help others, and maybe even possibly potentially (with no expectations) find a small opening for healing with the friends.

Onward and upward!

new crystals

New booty available soon ....

After I take a nap ....

spring

Spring in my garden.... smell-o-web doesn't work so well.

Nothin' else to share at the moment.  Lots of 3D life and so-beyond-3D life happening.

Lots of love to all!