I am eternally fascinated by the cosmic flow of life and what comes and what goes away. It's an ever changing tide and it is a good thing. Not every thing or every one fits with us or our lives all the time. While it is sad to lose friends or jobs or homes you love dearly, it is always for a higher purpose. The divine plan is always at work. As humans we want to keep the things that make us happy in our lives all the time (well, maybe that's just optimistic ME), but nature is always recycling itself, so why wouldn't our own lives do this? Happiness is our birthright, but so is aligning with those things, people, places, etc, that make us truly thrive and live and be HAPPY and joyful.
Aligning from our hearts, from that deep core place of what we know to be our OWN truth, is not always an easy thing. But when you reach that place and choose to live in that space of divine heart, life flows. Eternally and unlimitedly. (Is that a word?)
And who's to say that those things or people you let go of or just faded away years ago don't come back? I've recently had three old friends resurface, one by my choice (guidance), and others by their choice. I am so grateful to have a reconnection, and while we may not be BFFs any time soon (or maybe we will), it is a chance for me to truly look inward and see where my heart is open. It is a gift.
Open your heart, live your life from there, and if something does align or fit for you, let it go.
It'll be okay.
Really, it will.
And while you are crying or grieving or just pissed off at the world, breathe with your heart, know that I have been there with you, and we'll get through it together.
See, that's not so bad, is it?
Friday, February 26, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
stone of the moment - Morganite
Note: this blog is long and meandering, but it really does get to a point at the end. :)
A few weeks ago I grabbed a morganite from my shelf and threw it in my pocket. I love morganite's soft shimmery pink and it's heart chakra connection. At the time I knew I needed a little extra love, but didn't really put any thought into what I was carrying with me.
Well, the Morganite has not left my pocket since that day.
This is unusual.
Yeah, I know, you're thinking, "But she's the rock girl, she's always got rocks in her pockets." True, but not so much lately. I've gone many months now with NOTHING in my pockets. I have stones next to my bed when I sleep, they are on my desk, they're in my car, but I just could not have anything on my body for the longest time.
It's all changed for a reason.
Morganite has been teaching me.
Now, for those of you who haven't heard my spiel about crystals, here's the thing.... crystals and stones don't actually DO anything for us. They don't heal US. They don't have magical powers. (Well, to some degree!) What they offer is a quiet reminder about who WE are as humans. Each crystal has its own personality and energy that resonate at the same vibration ALL the time. By maintaining that vibration consistently, we are able to tap into that energy and hold it in our body. The longer we work with something, the longer it stays at that same vibration in our body and we can "embody" the energy of the stone, which in turn doesn't allow any lower vibrating thoughts or energies to survive. Of course, we do have free will and choice and it can always slip back.
So back to the Morganite.
As you know by reading this blog, I have had a few challenges in life in the past months. Lots of changes, heart ache, loss, illness, ascension crap (and yes, I will call it 'crap' until it shifts to something else LOL). My heart has had some issues. I have been trying to open it, but it's just freakin' hard when so many doors get slammed on it over and over and over. Trust is very challenging lately, and I have had to pull my energy and boundaries so tightly into myself that not much can get in. (Two dear healer friends literally got pushed back a few nights ago as they started to work on me, until I gave my body and guides the okay for them to come in.)
Every single day, I put the Morganite in my pocket. Every single night, it sits by my head as I sleep.
It wasn't until today that I really thought about the gifts it has been giving me. There was an experience today where my heart was physically hurting, like someone was crushing it in their hands. I couldn't breathe, I felt lightheaded and dizzy, and I wasn't sure what was going on. I just kept breathing deeply and focusing on grounding. After a specific and unexpected encounter that forced me to open my heart a little bit, it was gone.
Morganite has been teaching me to gently release any emotions that are pent up inside, old emotions that had grabbed my heart and were slowly choking the life out of it. Those emotions were not serving me in any form. It has been deeply nurturing in a time when I am very alone as well as being a caretaker to my ill mother. It has whispered quietly that all is divinely perfect no matter what the circumstances, and reminded me that I really am not alone at all. Patience is not one of my virtues by any means (Hello, Aries), but Morganite asks me to remain quiet and patient in a deep space of love. And all is well with the world.
Life's challenges aren't over, by any means, there will be some hard heart conversations coming up soon. But I feel stronger and centered back in my heart again.
All because of a rock.
:)
Blessings to you all~
A few weeks ago I grabbed a morganite from my shelf and threw it in my pocket. I love morganite's soft shimmery pink and it's heart chakra connection. At the time I knew I needed a little extra love, but didn't really put any thought into what I was carrying with me.
Well, the Morganite has not left my pocket since that day.
This is unusual.
Yeah, I know, you're thinking, "But she's the rock girl, she's always got rocks in her pockets." True, but not so much lately. I've gone many months now with NOTHING in my pockets. I have stones next to my bed when I sleep, they are on my desk, they're in my car, but I just could not have anything on my body for the longest time.
It's all changed for a reason.
Now, for those of you who haven't heard my spiel about crystals, here's the thing.... crystals and stones don't actually DO anything for us. They don't heal US. They don't have magical powers. (Well, to some degree!) What they offer is a quiet reminder about who WE are as humans. Each crystal has its own personality and energy that resonate at the same vibration ALL the time. By maintaining that vibration consistently, we are able to tap into that energy and hold it in our body. The longer we work with something, the longer it stays at that same vibration in our body and we can "embody" the energy of the stone, which in turn doesn't allow any lower vibrating thoughts or energies to survive. Of course, we do have free will and choice and it can always slip back.
So back to the Morganite.
As you know by reading this blog, I have had a few challenges in life in the past months. Lots of changes, heart ache, loss, illness, ascension crap (and yes, I will call it 'crap' until it shifts to something else LOL). My heart has had some issues. I have been trying to open it, but it's just freakin' hard when so many doors get slammed on it over and over and over. Trust is very challenging lately, and I have had to pull my energy and boundaries so tightly into myself that not much can get in. (Two dear healer friends literally got pushed back a few nights ago as they started to work on me, until I gave my body and guides the okay for them to come in.)
Every single day, I put the Morganite in my pocket. Every single night, it sits by my head as I sleep.
It wasn't until today that I really thought about the gifts it has been giving me. There was an experience today where my heart was physically hurting, like someone was crushing it in their hands. I couldn't breathe, I felt lightheaded and dizzy, and I wasn't sure what was going on. I just kept breathing deeply and focusing on grounding. After a specific and unexpected encounter that forced me to open my heart a little bit, it was gone.
Morganite has been teaching me to gently release any emotions that are pent up inside, old emotions that had grabbed my heart and were slowly choking the life out of it. Those emotions were not serving me in any form. It has been deeply nurturing in a time when I am very alone as well as being a caretaker to my ill mother. It has whispered quietly that all is divinely perfect no matter what the circumstances, and reminded me that I really am not alone at all. Patience is not one of my virtues by any means (Hello, Aries), but Morganite asks me to remain quiet and patient in a deep space of love. And all is well with the world.
Life's challenges aren't over, by any means, there will be some hard heart conversations coming up soon. But I feel stronger and centered back in my heart again.
All because of a rock.
:)
Blessings to you all~
Thursday, February 11, 2010
caregiving during cancer
Yeah, my blog-guilt has kicked in. No new blog usually means either 1) life is busy, or 2) life is processing. Take a wild guess at which one is the reason this time. :)
Lauren has it all figured out. Mostly.
I am plugging away through the up's and down's of ascension and being a caregiver. Being a caregiver during ascension is not anything I'd wish on anyone. Living with cancer is an experience that can't be explained. It is it's own bubble of creation that no one should have to live through. On the surface, we're doing just fine, mom's state of being is fairly strong most of the time, the tumor has shrunk and is shrinking, she's lost most of her hair, and we go to a lot of appointments. But underneath it all, it's a roller coaster of emotions, medications, food issues or not eating, germ concerns, lots of sleeping, and not much conversation. We're pretty isolated in our own little world, not many people around other than my brother and the kids. I hear stories from other people going through illness and about all the visitors bringing food, phone calls asking what they need help with, offers for outings, and mom has a few phone calls here and there from friends and family asking how she's doing, but that's it. Cancer is different for every single person. (And I am NOT complaining, this is just how it is for us.) We know she'll survive this with flying colors. She's not "terminal" by any means, and this is just a glitch in the flow of life that forces us to look at who we are, how we treat our bodies, and what is really important in life. It's a gift.
I was doing really well as a caregiver until yesterday. It all just hit me at once that I am overwhelmed with daily tasks, driving to and from appointments, and being there all the time. Mom is very blessed to have complimentary (as in "free", but also complementary to her western medicine) healing touch, massage, and acupuncture appointments lined up for months to come. We'd even talked about getting pedicures and doing lots of fun things to nurture ourselves, but then boom, we're already more than half through her treatments, and really, most of the time, she's too tired.
My feet are neglected. So my intent is to start making appointments for myself for massage (done!) and healings (next task!), to get back to my dearly missed yoga class, to go to the mall a few times a week to walk (until it warms up!), to leave my house for more than appointments or grocery shopping, or even to find a hotel room with a jacuzzi tub in a far away suburb where I can escape for one night. It is challenging for me to ask for help or focus on myself, so if you want to invite me for coffee or go do something, I'll say yes. (Especially if you live in Hawaii or Florida! LOL)
On top of all this caregiving and cancer (and cabin fever), there is the phase of trying to figure out what to do with my life, feeling stripped of everything I have known and AM on many levels, regrouping back at square one for my business and being blessed with new opportunities, grieving through lost friendships (most of them gone now) *and* celebrating renewed and new friendships, wanting to flee back to my home planet, not being able to plan for more than 2 hours ahead of life, having no motivation to get anything done, including laundry, feeling deeply deeply lonely, and yet also having glorious moments of grace and connection.
I know this all will lead to amazing things. I see the gifts in ALL of this. My intuition and clair's are getting stronger, my family grows stronger, my neighbors fight over who gets to plow my driveway, we meet sweet people with genuine concern for mom at the grocery store or D'Amico, my soon-to-be four year old neice keeps us smiling and focused on our hearts, I get to have tea and good conversations in the middle of the day at the MOA (Mall of America) with friends, and above all, I get to see where my heart is open and where it is not so open.
What an adventure. It's all uphill from here!
BLESSINGS to you all~
Lauren has it all figured out. Mostly.
I am plugging away through the up's and down's of ascension and being a caregiver. Being a caregiver during ascension is not anything I'd wish on anyone. Living with cancer is an experience that can't be explained. It is it's own bubble of creation that no one should have to live through. On the surface, we're doing just fine, mom's state of being is fairly strong most of the time, the tumor has shrunk and is shrinking, she's lost most of her hair, and we go to a lot of appointments. But underneath it all, it's a roller coaster of emotions, medications, food issues or not eating, germ concerns, lots of sleeping, and not much conversation. We're pretty isolated in our own little world, not many people around other than my brother and the kids. I hear stories from other people going through illness and about all the visitors bringing food, phone calls asking what they need help with, offers for outings, and mom has a few phone calls here and there from friends and family asking how she's doing, but that's it. Cancer is different for every single person. (And I am NOT complaining, this is just how it is for us.) We know she'll survive this with flying colors. She's not "terminal" by any means, and this is just a glitch in the flow of life that forces us to look at who we are, how we treat our bodies, and what is really important in life. It's a gift.
I was doing really well as a caregiver until yesterday. It all just hit me at once that I am overwhelmed with daily tasks, driving to and from appointments, and being there all the time. Mom is very blessed to have complimentary (as in "free", but also complementary to her western medicine) healing touch, massage, and acupuncture appointments lined up for months to come. We'd even talked about getting pedicures and doing lots of fun things to nurture ourselves, but then boom, we're already more than half through her treatments, and really, most of the time, she's too tired.
My feet are neglected. So my intent is to start making appointments for myself for massage (done!) and healings (next task!), to get back to my dearly missed yoga class, to go to the mall a few times a week to walk (until it warms up!), to leave my house for more than appointments or grocery shopping, or even to find a hotel room with a jacuzzi tub in a far away suburb where I can escape for one night. It is challenging for me to ask for help or focus on myself, so if you want to invite me for coffee or go do something, I'll say yes. (Especially if you live in Hawaii or Florida! LOL)
On top of all this caregiving and cancer (and cabin fever), there is the phase of trying to figure out what to do with my life, feeling stripped of everything I have known and AM on many levels, regrouping back at square one for my business and being blessed with new opportunities, grieving through lost friendships (most of them gone now) *and* celebrating renewed and new friendships, wanting to flee back to my home planet, not being able to plan for more than 2 hours ahead of life, having no motivation to get anything done, including laundry, feeling deeply deeply lonely, and yet also having glorious moments of grace and connection.
I know this all will lead to amazing things. I see the gifts in ALL of this. My intuition and clair's are getting stronger, my family grows stronger, my neighbors fight over who gets to plow my driveway, we meet sweet people with genuine concern for mom at the grocery store or D'Amico, my soon-to-be four year old neice keeps us smiling and focused on our hearts, I get to have tea and good conversations in the middle of the day at the MOA (Mall of America) with friends, and above all, I get to see where my heart is open and where it is not so open.
What an adventure. It's all uphill from here!
BLESSINGS to you all~
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
February Email Newsletter
Happy 2010!
Wow is it February already?! What the heck? Seriously, this whole TIME thing of moving really fast, and yet at times seeming to move very slow, is throwing me for a loop. My saving grace is that I know we are inching towards SPRING full of new growth and light.
It's been a rocky start to 2010. I am not alone in saying it's been one of the hardest months of my life. At yet, at the same time, deeply rewarding and eye-opening as I look deeply at myself and what needs to change. Not an easy thing. Letting go of a LOT all at once isn't recommended if you can make this choice, but sometimes the Universe has other ideas that can't be ignored.
My advice is to just go with it, stay as centered and as lovingly gentle upon yourself as you can, and breathe in Love.
New Locations for Energetic Services
Shifting? Need a little energetic support to get through?
As so many things are releasing and changing and new energies are coming in, our energies and body can tend to get stuck in the old patterns (which is naturally only what is knows). By connecting on a soul level and all dimensions, we are more easily able to release, balance, and heal that which holds us back from living in peace, balance, and wholeness.
MultiDimensional Sessions go beyond traditional "healing" and can help bring you to a new space of higher vibration and clarity. Sessions include energetic guidance from your soul and higher self, connecting with a higher state of being that is always available to you, and remembering the Light that you are Now. We also consciously work with a group of Angelic and non-physical guides and beings of Light, who guide and coach me through your energy field, body, and soul.
Through discussion and intuitive guidance, my intent is to align you with higher vibrational energies to maintain health and wellbeing on all levels. I am simply a vessel to channel universal energies to you, to be a sacred witness to your process, and to support you in divine awareness.
New Locations!
I am available after February 9, 2010, for Multi-Dimensional Sessions and Amethyst BioMat sessions by appointment at the soon-to-open Spirit River in downtown Anoka, as well as at my home office in St Paul. To celebrate these new locations, I am offering sessions for only $55 until February 26. Please contact me for appointments.
I will also be available on Saturday, February 13, from 10 am - 2 pm, at Spirit River offering 15 & 30 minute Heart-Opening energy healings and Amethyst BioMat sessions for $20 and $35 respectively, OR bring your sweetheart and you both get an additional $5 off! Just drop in or contact me to sign up for a specific time beforehand. The shop is located at 2013 2nd Ave, Anoka, MN 55303, right downtown near lots of other great shops.
More information is at www.crystallinelight.com/healing.html
New Gifts ~
Crystalline Light is offering a few new gifts to uplift and inspire you!
Crystal Dance & Affirmation candles
These are absolutely lovely hand-crafted candles with affirmations, gemstones, and other styles (debuting in Superior this weekend, then online!) with pure essential oils. Believe me, I am the pickiest person around and never use "fragrance oils" in anything and only the highest quality oils in anything I make or sell. The creator of these candles puts SO much love and intention into them all!
BeLove Himalayan Bath Salts
Just in time for Valentine's Day! Pink Himalayan Bath Salts with geranium and rosemary essential oils, rose petals, a rose quartz stone, and rose quartz gemstone essence infusion.
KidSpirit Mists
Crystalline Light has created these mists to bring energetic support and care to kids who may be a little more "spirited" or sensitive. Using a blend of flower and gem essences and a single essential oil, these energetic mists are aromatherapy with a twist. Each one has unique properties to clear, calm, or focus your children.
Details are at at www.crystallinelight.com/shop.html
Holistic Healing & Psychic Fair in Superior
Crystalline Light is exhibiting this coming Saturday, February 6, in Superior WI! Come visit!
http://www.bodylabusa.com
Wow is it February already?! What the heck? Seriously, this whole TIME thing of moving really fast, and yet at times seeming to move very slow, is throwing me for a loop. My saving grace is that I know we are inching towards SPRING full of new growth and light.
It's been a rocky start to 2010. I am not alone in saying it's been one of the hardest months of my life. At yet, at the same time, deeply rewarding and eye-opening as I look deeply at myself and what needs to change. Not an easy thing. Letting go of a LOT all at once isn't recommended if you can make this choice, but sometimes the Universe has other ideas that can't be ignored.
My advice is to just go with it, stay as centered and as lovingly gentle upon yourself as you can, and breathe in Love.
New Locations for Energetic Services
Shifting? Need a little energetic support to get through?
As so many things are releasing and changing and new energies are coming in, our energies and body can tend to get stuck in the old patterns (which is naturally only what is knows). By connecting on a soul level and all dimensions, we are more easily able to release, balance, and heal that which holds us back from living in peace, balance, and wholeness.
MultiDimensional Sessions go beyond traditional "healing" and can help bring you to a new space of higher vibration and clarity. Sessions include energetic guidance from your soul and higher self, connecting with a higher state of being that is always available to you, and remembering the Light that you are Now. We also consciously work with a group of Angelic and non-physical guides and beings of Light, who guide and coach me through your energy field, body, and soul.
Through discussion and intuitive guidance, my intent is to align you with higher vibrational energies to maintain health and wellbeing on all levels. I am simply a vessel to channel universal energies to you, to be a sacred witness to your process, and to support you in divine awareness.
New Locations!
I am available after February 9, 2010, for Multi-Dimensional Sessions and Amethyst BioMat sessions by appointment at the soon-to-open Spirit River in downtown Anoka, as well as at my home office in St Paul. To celebrate these new locations, I am offering sessions for only $55 until February 26. Please contact me for appointments.
I will also be available on Saturday, February 13, from 10 am - 2 pm, at Spirit River offering 15 & 30 minute Heart-Opening energy healings and Amethyst BioMat sessions for $20 and $35 respectively, OR bring your sweetheart and you both get an additional $5 off! Just drop in or contact me to sign up for a specific time beforehand. The shop is located at 2013 2nd Ave, Anoka, MN 55303, right downtown near lots of other great shops.
More information is at www.crystallinelight.com/healing.html
New Gifts ~
Crystalline Light is offering a few new gifts to uplift and inspire you!
Crystal Dance & Affirmation candles
These are absolutely lovely hand-crafted candles with affirmations, gemstones, and other styles (debuting in Superior this weekend, then online!) with pure essential oils. Believe me, I am the pickiest person around and never use "fragrance oils" in anything and only the highest quality oils in anything I make or sell. The creator of these candles puts SO much love and intention into them all!
BeLove Himalayan Bath Salts
Just in time for Valentine's Day! Pink Himalayan Bath Salts with geranium and rosemary essential oils, rose petals, a rose quartz stone, and rose quartz gemstone essence infusion.
KidSpirit Mists
Crystalline Light has created these mists to bring energetic support and care to kids who may be a little more "spirited" or sensitive. Using a blend of flower and gem essences and a single essential oil, these energetic mists are aromatherapy with a twist. Each one has unique properties to clear, calm, or focus your children.
Details are at at www.crystallinelight.com/shop.html
Holistic Healing & Psychic Fair in Superior
Crystalline Light is exhibiting this coming Saturday, February 6, in Superior WI! Come visit!
http://www.bodylabusa.com
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