Crystalline Light Blog

letting go and newness ...

2011-11-14T12:17:00.001-06:00

I am letting this blog go, as it has served it's purpose
and I felt called to create something fresh and new.

www.shiftinginthenow.blogspot.com

is now where I will be.

Thank you ALL who have read and supported this blog over the years!

Blessings & Love to all, hope to "see" you there!

Crystal Awakenings e-course preview

2011-05-31T15:45:00.001-05:00

Announcing!!!

beloved child

2011-04-13T21:40:00.000-05:00

click to view enlarged version.

Intro to Crystal Energies webcast

2011-04-12T17:01:00.000-05:00

Choose Carefully

2011-03-14T23:47:00.004-05:00

Friends, I tried to write this as a facebook status, and obviously I had too many words to share. I am being guided to share some insights I have been getting over the past few days. It's not easy to share, since it can be contrary to what we feel we are supposed to "do" as lightworkers and healers. Please just take this guidance as you wish.

As so much happens on the planet and in our own lives, it can be easy to get caught up in the dramatic stories and replays and information about tragedies. There is no doubt that it is all sad, the human lives lost and changed, the threats of even greater disaster as potentials. There is certainly a greater compassion in all of humanity that awakens when tragedies strike.

Words and images carry energy (especially when water is involved, as it amplifies everything and is emotional). (For those of you not aware of this fact, please see Masaru Emoto's work or the movie What the Bleep Do We Know?) As we feel moved by all the suffering, pain, destruction, heartbreak, etc, in Japan and elsewhere around the world, the video's, news stories, and images can flood our inbox and our facebook pages, and we may feel an inspiration or obligation to share these images. We simply propagate the fear even more as we spread the news clips and updates.

Anything based in fear, even if it moves your heart, continues to spread that fear and can hold the energy of the tragedy. Because of group consciousness and so many millions of people focusing on the tragedies, these situations can have a challenging time doing the work they need to do (from an energetic & soul perspective). Is focusing on the tsunami's destruction a help or hindrance? Thanks (or no thanks) to facebook, youtube, email, etc, we keep spreading fear, even if unintentionally.

What we focus on, expands.

What we think about, grows.

We can still surround the situations in light, love, and wholeness, have compassion for the world, but it is so much healthier and clearer from the state of Love. Simply ALLOW the situation to be what it is. Allow the situation to move at it's own pace and work on its own healing pattern. What we may *think* the situation needs may not be the case at all; maybe another nuclear disaster is what Mother Earth or the Universe has planned. (That is just an extreme example, I am not intending for that to happen.) We never know the Divine Plan, and there always is one.

Focusing on LOVE, simply love at its highest, purest, most divine state, is absolutely the best help and healing we as lightworkers and healers can offer. Surround the area's and people in LOVE, not focusing on specifics or aiming to be "the healer."

LOVE LOVE LOVE.

That is all that is needed. Hold it in your heart. That's all.

Consider what you are posting on facebook.
Think about the words you share.
FEEL from your heart what you are meant to share with the world.

We CAN and WILL shift it to a higher vibration of light and love, but only if that is what we focus on.

Thanks.

(PS ~ Find positive websites to share such as the Mystic Healing Portal or Do As One to help in sending positive light.)

preview of stones from Tucson Gem Show

2011-02-20T11:36:00.000-06:00

February YouTube on Energies

2011-02-01T20:23:00.000-06:00

8 days

2011-01-31T13:25:00.000-06:00

In 8 days, I leave cold snowy Minnesota for warmth, sunshine, vacation, and the Tucson Gem Show. Finally! After 9 consecutive years attending, I had to miss last year due to family health issues. So my BONES are literally aching to go again! If you have read my blog for any length of time there are a few posts and photo's from previous years, but I have come across some great pictoral blogs that will give you a taste of the show:

Great descriptions, and the Crystal Man looks familiar!
http://www.snobappealjewelry.com/blog/?p=754

She is a bicyclist with some good photo's.
http://retiredbicycle.blogspot.com/2011/01/plague-and-tucson-gem-show.html

Great food and great gem shows in Tucson!
http://www.rvgoddess.com/POSTCARDS/2011/FLOSS/JANUARY/013011.aspx

Local Tucson News:
http://www.kold.com/Global/story.asp?S=13933050

But not to worry, I will be blogging and facebooking lots of pictures and stories too! (I don't have immediate internet access while in Phoenix (where I am staying most of the trip), but I will in Tucson.)

WHOO HOOOOOO!

Evolutionary Catalysts

2011-01-29T14:57:00.000-06:00

The times they are a changin'. Every day is a new journey of energies, shifts, awareness, and insights. As the earth experiences shifts, so do we. As we experience being human, we shift. As we open to more Love/God/Source energy, we open emotional portals that need to be cleared. It's an ongoing cycle that unfortunately does not seem to let up. It can get tiring for sure. But as we find the tools and resources to help us stay balanced, it is so much easier.

Clear your Garbage.

One of my mentors stresses constantly that if you clear your own personal emotional/mental/whatever "garbage", your buttons won't get pushed, your "issues" clear up", and life gets easier. I agree.

I read this channeling by the Hathors today by Tom Kenyon. Phenomenal. Is so helpful to me to see a bigger picture of what's happening and what I feel deep in my bones. He is a true visionary and the Hathors have been great teachers to me over the years.

They mention "Evolutionary Catalysts." The term has stayed with me all day, thinking about what it means to me. I love that term.

EVERYthing in our life is an Evolutionary Catalyst. Everything we encounter or do or experience moves us forward to help us become better humans. At least it *should*, and if it doesn't, you better think about it. We are in such beautiful amazing times that if we don't really clear our stuff, it gets hard.

Our Evolutionary Catalysts can also be consciously chosen. My personal path is so much easier when I have mentors and teachers. Sure, I know I have ALL the knowledge I will ever need within myself, and I do use that ALL that time. We all should. But I really appreciate others insights and information to help me move along a little faster. I have had many amazing and beautiful teachers in many forms, whether its friends, family, a person I pass in the grocery store, or a clip on tv I watch. There are also many chosen mentors, classes I have taken, workshops attended, recordings listened to, etc. Tom Kenyon is for sure at the top of the list. Sri & Kira, Marilyn & Tohmas, Michele & Chris, Carolyn, Brenda & Jack (and how interesting is it that MANY of them are couples! LOL), Lauren, Jim, Sarah, and so many more. I am so blessed to have so many mentors, amazing FRIENDS (you know who you are!), and Evolutionary Catalysts in my life!

We don't need to walk this path alone. It is so much richer and joyful with other people, even if you just listen to their audio recordings or read a channeling online. We NEED each other. It is TIME to be on this path together, so we can encourage and support each other in those moments of "WTF?!" (And I have those OFTEN! LOL) It is comforting to have someone just listen to me or to say, "You WILL be fine! It will all work out as it's supposed to!"

I am here for you. And others. We're all each other's Evolutionary Catalysts!

Who are yours?

blessings!

laughter!

2011-01-28T18:27:00.000-06:00

Laughter is healing. How often do you laugh for silly or sometimes no reason and feel completely renewed and uplifted? It has documented physical benefits that change our biology!

Well, my dear friend Patrick is a Laughter Yoga teacher, and just this week did TWO video's of just him laughing. Priceless. And I laughed hysterically, because how can you not when you hear someone's great laugh?

Go here to watch.

And laugh along for gosh sake's!!

winter nurturing

2011-01-27T21:36:00.004-06:00

Here in Minnesota we are in the depths of Winter. Everyone else in the US has also been experiencing a little harsher winter. It can be a challenge to stay positive and healthy for sure. I don't know about you but all I want to eat is warm, heavy comfort foods. My skin is tired and dry. My hair is a wreck of dry flatness.

And my spirit ...

Well, my spirit is mostly doing really good, except for those days when the sun doesn't shine, it's below 20 degrees (or worse), and there is yet another forecast for snow. This all does affect one's ability to move forward and to feel inspired.

Today, I had to dig deep and find the tools I needed to feel warm saturate deep in my bones, moisture in my body, and light in my soul.

*Big pot of boiling water with a customized essential oil blend from my friend Jodi. Yummy smells in house = happy Jennifer.

*LOUD music to get my body moving ... today's choice was the Sound of Sunshine from my soulinspiration Michael Franti.

*Turned my heat up a little bit and took off my fuzzy socks.

*Hot bath with my own Chakra Serenity bath salts that were SO moisturizing to my skin! Lovely!

*Superscrubbed my face with my fave deep exfoliant and sugar scrub.

*Moisturized the heck outta my skin with LOVE. Literally. Jeanne has lotions for each chakra (and some of the stones inside them she got from ME!). They're not on her site, but you can contact her about them.

And then ...

*I sat on the couch and sat in pure SILENCE. For 45 minutes. No music. No guided meditation. No thoughts (mostly). Just silence. It was heavenly. It was a bit challenging at first, I wanted to go into a visualization of some sort or turn on one of the many many meditations or channelings I have available. Once I got past the monkeymind I was good.

It was amazing how much clearer energetically I felt when I took the time to come back to myself instead of the "doing" I was doing. There are sometimes expectations of doing a lot, when really, if we can just BE and allow and let life FLOW as it's supposed to, life really does flow and expand and create whatever is perfect for us in each moment. My rituals and mini-spa day (which didn't take long!) helped me breathe deeper, be centered again, and find a new space to work from (as I continue some time-consuming projects).

There are other things I have had to do this winter to get out of a rut and I would highly recommend them to any locals (or find your equivalent in your area).

Como Zoo & Conservatory. Humid and flowery green BLISS.
Walk the Mall of America. (Just walk, don't shop. Okay but maybe stop for sushi.)
Afternoon matinee of a stupid movie.
Minneapolis Institute of Art.
Walk around Lake Harriet (even in the cold & snow).
Read books in the travel section of the bookstore.
Eat hot & spicy pad thai and mai tai's.

So enjoy, crank the tunes and the heat!

What suggestions do you have to lift your spirit in mid-winter? Feel free to comment to share!

January newsletter updates

2011-01-14T18:16:00.000-06:00

Hey friends!

A newsletter to my email list went out today about some great SPECIAL OFFERS ... you really should go read it.

I am so grateful!

And, yes, your regularly programmed blogging will return shortly.

Thanks for your patience.

2011-01-11T22:04:00.001-06:00

Shine in 2011

2011-01-01T13:03:00.000-06:00

There certainly is a new hope for 2011!

Shine ON!

I am so grateful!!

joyful holiday

2010-12-25T13:03:00.000-06:00

A joyful holiday of blessings and light to you all!

Reverb - Everything's OK

2010-12-24T11:00:00.001-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Everything's OK. What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead?(Author: Kate Inglis)

There was a moment this summer when my 4 year old niece Flora and I were in my backyard garden, sitting in the big periwinkle Adirondack chairs, looking at the sky. We each had our own chair, and for her to actually sit for more than a minute was a miracle. I'd been having a tough day, emotionally drained, so was enjoying just being. After a minute or two sitting there, Flora says, "Jenn, I love you." "Oh, Flora, I love you too." "And this is my favorite place to be. With you. It's like magic." Awwwww....heart melting. At that moment her older brother Kai showed up, snuggles into me, and says, "This is just beautiful back here. I love you Jenn." Another few seconds later her other brother (they're twins) shows up and says, "Wow, this is like magic back here!" We all just sat together, feeling the love.

In the span of 4 minutes, surrounded by the most important people in my life, I knew life would be okay. It would be more than okay. If I lost everything else around me and still had these beautiful amazing children, I would be good. I soaked up every moment of it and bottled that feeling up in my heart.

Knowing and feeling this moment will carry me through my life, not just 2011.

Reverb - Travel

2010-12-22T13:30:00.001-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Travel. How did you travel in 2010? How and/or where would you like to travel next year? (Author: Tara Hunt)

HOW did I travel in 2010? On some rollercoasters and bumpy car rides. But I think I did as well as could be expected with it all. I love to travel, in all matter of travelling, so it is just part of the journey.

WHERE did I travel in 2010? Oh so many inner realms! And of course, Grand Marais (heaven close to home) and the beauty of Lake Superior. Atlanta. Savannah. Tybee Island (heaven far from home). Dubuque. St Cloud. Belle Plaine. Eau Claire. Ashland. Superior. Duluth. Park Rapids.

How and where in 2011? With GRACE. No more bumpy rides for me, thank you. And with other divine travelers that I love. To all the same places plus MORE! Tucson & Phoenix, Sedona. Seattle. California. Sante Fe & Taos. Naples & the little islands. England! BALI!!

And don't forget deep within to the places of JOY and LOVE.

Hi ho!

Reverb - Future Self

2010-12-21T19:52:00.000-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Future Self. Imagine yourself five years from now. What advice would you give your current self for the year ahead? (Bonus: Write a note to yourself 10 years ago. What would you tell your younger self?) (Author: Jenny Blake)

Dear Jennifer~

Oh beautiful Jennifer, what a difference in life 5 years makes, huh? I am so proud of you and all the amazing shifts and changes you have made. Your life has opened up in ways you just couldn't imagine five years ago, didn't it? All those years of hard work and patience helped you create such a beautiful, loving, divine life. Think about where you were in 2010. Wasn't it just unreal, in some respect? So hard, so many lessons, but yet so many moments of bliss and connection.

But NOW ... NOW you have so much MORE! You have it all and there is more to come!!

I want to remind you, however, of a few things to come in 2011. You will GROW! You will find that everything you have done in your life up until now has led to this moment. You will gain new connections and resources that allow your life AND businesses to thrive in ALL ways! There will be personal insights and connections, new people, new levels of consciousness ...

All it takes is FAITH, COURAGE, and LOVE.

You have always had all three, but they've waivered a bit in the past years. Faith is what will keep you strong, it will bring you the courage you need to move forward, and of course, LOVE is at the center of it all, always, and it just always GROWS. And yes, there will be romantic love this year too. You are ready and you have no idea what JOY is to come! ;)

2011 will be your best year yet! (But it will just continue to get better and better .....)

So my reminders to you:

Open your heart!
Follow your heart!
Trust!
Go on FAITH!
Take the steps with COURAGE!
BE FEARLESS!
Keep writing!
Keep shining!
Always find your JOY!
You have ALL THAT YOU NEED WITHIN!!!

Yes, you really do!!

Now go to it! The world is waiting for you and your amazing creations and Love!
I LOVE YOU!!!
To infinity and beyond~~
jennifer

Reverb - Beyond Avoidance

2010-12-20T20:21:00.006-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Beyond avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn't because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?) (Author: Jake Nickell)

2010 went by SO fast. Even though I know it was all perfect and I don't believe in "should's", I might have attended to a few things. Clutter in my office. A few friendships. Rebuilding my business. Getting more massages and healings. Going to yoga class.

I don't regret any of these however. There is divine timing for everything, and I trust the process of how life plays out every single day.

And in 2011, yes, I will do whatever I need to do for more joy, love, and flow in my life!

Reverb - Heal

2010-12-19T23:47:00.002-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011? (Author: Leonie Allan)

Where do I even begin?

I healed myself. I am healing myself.

At the same time, I do believe we are perfect, whole, and Divine all the time. We tend to forget this on our human journey, then strive to clear away the "muck" to get back to Divine.

My friends, my true soul connections, my garden, the moonlight, music, the time to just be and breathe ... all this things were huge factors in healing myself. Without these things, I would be much crazier right now. 2010 was my year of a LOT of things, non-necessities, being stripped away. While the stripping away was usually quick and fast, the healing from it was verrrrry slow, drip by drip, and I could even feel the drips slowly pulling away the rough hard edges.

It was glorious.
I am grateful every day for these moments. (Well, except for those "moments" (ie weeks) were I had a hard time functioning or even breathing, was so wrapped up in emotions and overwhelm and stuckness.) I wouldn't change any of it.

In 2011 I intend to continue my own healing, in all ways, but with much more EASE and grace. No more of this "let me whack you upside the head" crap. My main intention is to heal my belief that I am not worthy (of love, of money, of speaking my truth). When I truly look at what holds me back in various ways, it boils down that one thing. Amazing what "one thing" can affect.

But I am grateful for it all, for the Big Learnings.

(And yay for my inspirationalfriend Leonie's prompt! She rocks.)

Reverb - Try

2010-12-18T09:44:00.000-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Try. What do you want to try next year? Is there something you wanted to try in 2010? What happened when you did / didn’t go for it? (Author: Kaileen Elise)

I will not quote Yoda right now.

Awww dang I just have to ...

"Do or not do, there is no Try."

TRY doesn't really exist in my world. Hasn't for a while. I either do or don't do. To "try" means I really won't ever get to it.

But I know that's not really what they meant in this particular prompt.

2010 wasn't really a year of new things. It was enough for me to just stay sane and balanced, so doing new things wasn't on my radar.

But in 2011, I would like to DO a Zip Line (with my mom). And travel to a foreign country (which also means getting a passport.) Play with Metal Clay. And maybe some Kirtan. Oh and of course opening my heart.

Plus whatever else fun and creative and amazing the Universe has in store for me.

That's all.

(I'm a little annoyed by this prompt since it seems to overlap a few other prompts. Ah well.)

Reverb - Lesson Learned

2010-12-17T14:30:00.006-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Lesson learned. What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward? (Author: Tara Weaver)

Resiliency.

I have always thought I was very resilient. There have been so many experiences in my life that have been challenging and stupid and well, Life. Every single time, however, I am able to get up, brush myself off, and move on.

This year, I wasn't so sure that was going to happen.

I really did wonder at times if the pain and the caregiving and the digging deep within would kill me. Seriously. There were so many moments of "what the hell have I done with my life?" and "OMG please just take me home NOW, God, NOW NOW NOW!" The typical Jennifer who would see beyond whatever experience I'd just had seemed to have died. In some respect, a large part of me has died this past year. But it's okay. I needed it to and wanted it to. But it has taken me so much longer to bounce back.

It might be because of how BIG things were this year.

It might be because it was going to my deep inner core to see who I really was/AM.

And still, it might be because this just was my year of Big Ass Shifting.

Finally, eventually, I did see that I am still resilient. And now maybe it's even stronger, ironically. I am moving forward, and in a whole new way and with whole new eyes and knowing of who I am. I am strong, flexible, honorable, respecting, deep, willing, honest, loving, and even beautiful. A few people might not see the changes in me, or be willing to see them, but all that matters is myself, right?

I know I am Love, I know I am Loved, and I know there is nothing, NOTHING, that will break my spirit or kill my soul.

I apply this lesson daily, knowing that each moment asks us to move to the next moment, no matter what it might bring. It is digging deep into the unending well of Life and LOVE. Resiliency is our faith that life has hope.

At least I damn well hope so.

(And just now, a lot of these posts might seem self-serving, petty, or just weird, but they are my life and through Reverb I am clearing all the old to make way for the new. Rock on. Thanks.)

Reverb - Friendship

2010-12-16T23:01:00.002-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Friendship. How has a friend changed you or your perspective on the world this year? Was this change gradual, or a sudden burst? (Author: Martha Mihalick)

My goodness these prompt for Reverb sure to get me thinking about the Divine Order of things! Like so many prompts, this one is so timely and just nails one of the biggest aspects of my year.

I would have never predicted or hoped for what happened with my friendships this year. And I no longer have any concern about being honest about it, since I need to speak my truth and honestly, I don't give a damn about what others might think any more.

I lost a few friends this year. Not by choice, by any means. It was the unfortunate (but not really, now I see it as very fortunate) side effect of moving out of my office one year ago. Things happened, things didn't happen, there really is no reason for details. It was a slow descent that happened over time. And while for many months I dearly missed those friends whom I'd come to know and feel were truly my soulsisters, they weren't meant to stay in my life. They taught me a lot. We had many amazing fun times. It was all divine, of course.

Our parting wasn't easy, even though others claimed it was done in Love and we'd keep our friendship intact. Luckily, by the grace of God, I grew from this shitty experience, as it forced me to really look at who I was, to know within myself that I am NOT the bad person they made me out to be, and to know they truly were mirrors for me in both light and dark. I don't blame anyone, I don't see them as less than Divine, I accepted my responsibility in it all and did what I could to the best of my ability, and I truly hope that their lives become whole and rich and aligned with Love.

Within the muck and pain and confusion, however, came a tiny ray of hope. An unlikely friendship formed. An acquaintance from this group of friends and I decided to meet for coffee one day. It was divinely timed and I was so surprised to find out she wasn't really what the others had made her out to be and what even I thought her to be. There was big caution, of course, considering what I'd just experienced. Slowly, I came to know this beautiful person who opened my eyes to many new things, and I call her Friend. We're alike in so many ways, yet have differences. And it works.

We grew together over this past year, sharing our different though similar experiences. We've both supported and encouraged each other through big transformations and shifts, we know how to be friends to each other, and it's a mutual respect for who we are. I honestly do not know how I would have "recovered" from the past year without her friendship. Others might not see it or understand the unlikely friendship. But it is one of most rewarding and I will never be able to tell her how grateful I am for her presence in my life. I am so so soooo blessed.

And my mom likes her.

Reverb - 5 minutes

2010-12-15T16:33:00.006-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: 5 minutes. Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010. (Author: Patti Digh)

Summer bliss stars twinkly lights laughing Flora fairies garden flowers Kai Kaedon cancer shit hospitals clinics appointments driving crying being blessing asking helping being helped healing friends friends friends loss shifting every single day going within confirmations soul connections change swearing crying confusion pain stupidassmotherf**ker ignorance ego manipulation darkness hiding boundaries no boundaries loss alone letting go releasing surrendering love love love joy grilling farmers markets Michael Franti party hugs music dancing moonlight walking river water talking being beading creating experiencing life feeling God St Germaine Quan Yin transformation knowing sensing following intuition aligning with the flow being the flow time bringing in new energy out of whack discombobluated crying Grand Marais North Shore Lake Superior Atlanta Savannah Tybee Island Dubuque Rochester Eau Claire Park Rapids travelling parallel soul opening freedom Love Love Love.

spiritual bloggers?

2010-12-15T14:07:00.000-06:00

Hey I am writing a NON Reverb10 post! :)

As I was writing a few nights ago I had the realization that I feel a little lonely in the blogosphere. I KNOW there are other spiritual/holistic/metaphysical/transformational/inspirational bloggers out there. I read a lot of your blogs and yeah, I should probably start posting comments and saying Hi.

So can we make a deal? Will you start following and/or commenting in my blog? And I will do the same for yours? Just say Hi, give me (and everyone else) your blog address, and we'll start connecting. I even want to do giveaways and contests at some point soon in 2011. (And if you don't know what that is, start reading more blogs. LOL) Even if you don't have a blog, post a comment here and there as you feel inspired. Thanks.

And for those of you in "my" world who actually KNOW me in person, YOU NEED TO BLOG!

You know who you are!

Get on it already! It doesn't take much THOUGHT, time, or energy! Just spur of the moment inspirational thoughts typed up are coolio.

Let's get a spiritual blog community flowing!

Okay, post away in comments NOW! ;)

LOVE and love to all!

THANKS!!!

Reverb - Appreciate

2010-12-14T21:42:00.002-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Appreciate. What's the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it? (Author: Victoria Klein)
How can I even begin to express what I appreciate? I have a whole new appreciation for SO many things. Health, Life, Family, Friends, a roof over my head and food to eat ...

But truly, the ONE thing I have come to appreciate the most, even if we don't always get along perfectly, is my family. After dealing with my mom's cancer for more than 10 months, we have all come to really be there for each other. We always have, we've been lucky. My brother started coming around more often, the kids were more gentle with Grandma, my dad was as present as he could be from 1100 miles away (temporarily working in another state). We might not have a typical life together, but it's ours.

It wasn't an easy time for us. Lots of emotions, phone calls, trips to the clinic or hospital.

But we made it work. We didn't have a choice, mom's health was priority. She was blessed with our family support and the prayers and healing from people around the world, and she was graced with the gift of holistic treatments at the clinic to complement her western treatments. All of it made us appreciate the amazing nurses who do MORE than they should be required to do and the great doctors that had her back at all times. We didn't have any issues with the system like so many others do. It was such a blessing.

My family has always been there for me, and I will always be there for them. I don't always express that fact, but I will work on it.

I appreciate them more than they'd know.

Reverb - Action

2010-12-13T23:03:00.001-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Action. When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step? (Author: Scott Belsky)

Part of the past year was about action. Taking mom to the clinic. Taking mom to the emergency room. Visiting mom in hospital. Dropping mom off at chemo. It was very, very tiring.

So by summer, I was able to stop moving.

To just BE. To sit in my garden, to recoup, to find balance again.

Then I realized, I have stopped.

I stopped a LOT of things. There is a difference between resting and being, and stopping. I stopped my life. It might not be apparent to most people. I kept working (though much less), I kept doing things. But I was not moving forward. Honestly, it was too hard. It took all year for me to "recover" from all the action (physical and INNER action).

My next step is moving foward. It's moving into who I truly am.

It is allowing my business to grow in new ways. And putting into action all the ideas that pop into my head ALL THE TIME. Taking action to allow LOVE to come in. Action to LIVE FULL ON FUN, with beauty and grace, and to GROW.

Amen.

Reverb - Body Integration

2010-12-12T14:56:00.001-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Body Integration. This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body? Did you have a moment where there wasn’t mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present? (Author: Patrick Reynolds)

This prompt is actually so refreshing to me. Most of the folks in "my world" do really great with spiritual stuff and mind matters. Body, not so much. But in the past 2 or 3 years I have really moved INTO my body. In the spiritual realm, it is all about getting "out there" and to a higher state of vibration. Yep, absolutely. I strive for that daily.

BUT I have come to believe through a few teachers and my own inner digging, that we have to be IN OUR BODY to do this spiritual work.

(I feel like I should explain "spiritual work", but the shortest way to do that is to say we are living in amazingly transformative times on the planet and if we are not doing our personal inner work and connecting to our soul and spiritual lives, life will get really really hard.)

God did not give us a BODY for no reason. We have to nurture it and take care of it. Think about it, THERE ARE NO OTHER HUMAN BEINGS. We are special. To get really clear and connected to God, we have to be consciously connected within ourselves. Our bodies are the vessel to get us "there." (Even tho there is no "there", it's all HERE within! LOL)

A few years ago I got the nudges to start yoga. And it changed my life. My teacher rocks. Of course, I haven't been to her class for over a year now. Life got distracted. But my BODY can feel it every Tuesday night when I should be there. Yoga allowed me to move. To stretch. To feel connected to my body and to let the rest of the world disappear as I moved deeply into the present moment. Keep in mind, I am a big girl. I was terrified of walking into a typical yoga studio with size 2 blondes in $90 yoga pants. So not me. But my teacher is all about ALL bodies. And she understands we all have our own timing and ability, as well as the spiritual (true) aspects of yoga. There were times I thought I was going to pass out. I would laugh a LOT when I couldn't get into a position.

BUT ... I felt so much FREEDOM in realizing that I CAN move my body and I LOVE it. One particular time she had us maneuver into the wall ropes and fold forward with just the ropes supporting us. OMG. Nope, cant' do it. No way. She gently talked me through it, reassuring me that it would hold and that I could do it. So I laughed (even while my inner critic was screaming bloody murder), I leaned forward, and I DID IT. I had never felt so freakin' empowered and alive in that moment.

Yoga rocks.

In the past year it's been a struggle to continue to eat healthy, to get to yoga class, or to just MOVE my body. I CLAIM that I don't have TIME. But now I do. I need to make time. Hello, I bought a membership to a local rec center that has a great gym and walking track ... I have not been there ONCE. My body is getting more sensitive all the time. Sugar, salt, gluten, all not so great for my body. Can't do some of my typical skin care products anymore (and I already have been using natural chemical free products for close to 20 years). My physical body is starting to complain a little more. So I am paying attention. I address the emotional aspects of it all first, then dig in to clear whatever I need to clear.

2011 will be MY year. In many ways. I will honor and fully take care of my body. I AM eating more healthy. I AM going back to yoga. I AM walking more often. I AM using my gym membership. I AM LOVING my body.

Reverb - 11 Things

2010-12-11T17:32:00.000-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: 11 Things. What are 11 things your life doesn't need in 2011? How will you go about eliminating them? How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life? (From Sam Davidson)

I hereby announce that in 2011 I no longer need:

To NOT Open My Heart. While I have always been open hearted, I have been very guarded and cautious lately. No more.
To be afraid of going out into the big wide "mainstream" world as ME. This includes going out with friends (new and old) to bars, clubs, art galleries, studios, music venues, and other places to just have FUN.
To define myself by my loss and changes in 2010. No more. Moving Forward.
Fear of not doing enough. I always feel behind. In everything. I will realize that NOW is all I have and it's all divinely timed.
To feel limited by my profession. The "metaphysical" world doesn't fit me any longer. That doesn't mean that I do not do "metaphysical" things or have the interest. It means I want to expand where my focus goes and not feel so defined as "new age" or just an "energy healer". I am also a writer, social media wanna-be, blogger, artist, event planner, magzine editor, jewelry designer, foodie, gardener, crafter, handmade wannabe, yogi, and MORE.
To spend too many hours (yes, hours) reading blogs, emails, websites, teleclasses, playing Frontierville, or other online actions that do not uplift my soul. Really. Done.
Fear of deserving and having money. There are so many ways I have sabotaged myself since childhood. I see this clearly Now, and know deep in my heart that there is MORE to life for me in ALL ways and to live my full amazing beautiful life I need to FEEL within myself that I deserve this life I dream of. And that takes money. Money is not evil. Money is good. There IS enough to go around. I do not live in a recession, I create all that I need NOW. Thanks.
To skip out on what makes me happy. Many times I will not do what makes me happy, usually for silly reasons like I don't want to drive there, it's too cold outside, I don't have the money, I have to go alone, etc. I want to do it ALL.
To doubt that I deserve romantic love. I AM SINGLE AND AVAILABLE. (Shit that was hard to type!) Yes, I may have "issues" and a different life, but we all do. There IS someone out there for me. He just hasn't shown up yet. I deserve it. I want it. I (looked at the clock just now and it's 11:11 pm!) am consciously calling in my divine soul partner NOW. You all know where to reach me if you have someone in mind.
Clutter in my office. Ugh. Enough already! I WILL find the time and energy to clear it all out!
To doubt that I am a beautiful, divine, brilliant, feminine, sexy, powerful WOMAN. Because I am.

Getting rid of these things will bring me closer to the full amazing human that I really truly am! (And so are you!)

Whoo hoo!

reverb - Wisdom

2010-12-10T16:21:00.002-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? (Author: Susannah Conway)

This prompt hasn't been easy to write. I really could have written about the most obvious decision I made this year (well, end of '09), but it didn't feel right. There were a lot of small decisions I made this year that really played out beautifully and unexpectedly.

But what my heart wants you to know is about my decision to Find My Self.

I didn't realize how lost I'd been. Yes, I functioned and operated in the world as best I could. I really did think I knew myself. I was confident in my work, family, who I was. There really was no reason for me to believe I had any inner or personal work to do. I did all my emotional work 10+ years ago as I started on my spiritual path, been through years of traditional therapy. I thought I was "done" with all that soul seeking.

Ha!

Eventually something started cracking. My heart couldn't take it any longer, and all the years of looking outside myself for the answers finally forced me to look within myself. I'd had all these notions of who I was, who my friends thought I was, I took on ideas of other teachers and writers without a second thought. But did I really hold the same beliefs or concepts? Not really. I was lost in the game of "let's do everything we can before we really have to look at our own shit."

So I disappeared.

Not literally, of course, but I really sank within myself for many months, and to some degree, am still there. It was the year of letting go, of surrendering all that I thought was serving my life but really wasn't. Of letting my life just BE whatever it needed to be in each moment. For the first part of the year it was being in the moment of role as a caregiver, being able to drop everything to take my mom to the emergency room for the 3rd time or to her chemo session. My Outer Self really was present and on guard for her. Disappearing from the outside world was easier than I would have thought. But on such a deep soul level, I really needed it. My businesses and livelihood as taken a big hit because of it. I see it as a fair exchange for finding the start of who I really AM, however.

At the same time, my inner Self (and physical self) was crying every day, looking for one tiny bit of respite and peace, and really asking that the beliefs, thoughts, habits, patterns, soul agreements, contracts, etc, that didn't serve me any more be released from my life. I chose to sink into my inner world and explore, to look at the deep parts of myself that I haven't wanted to look at, ever. To see myself from a God Perspective and to see what wasn't 'real'. It wasn't easy, believe me. There were parts of myself that were ugly and sad. But I started doing my work. The inner work of releasing the old and seeing the true, beautiful, absolutely perfect being I AM.

I still have a long ways to go.

It's an ongoing process of knowing deep within myself that I am worthy of all the beauty and joy the world has to offer. Of actually believing that I AM God. It certainly is shifting how I see the world and how I present myself to the world. Slowly, bit by bit, I am coming out of my shell, seeking the world again. Forgive me if I dip my feet in and then run back to shore for a bit. It feels like this is the biggest, deepest, hardest, and yet most rewarding process I will go through in my LIFE. (And if you see my astrology transit chart for this year, reading "once in a lifetime transit" every other paragraph is not really fun, but now, it all makes so much sense.)

Finding My SELF.

Yep, still playing out. And still so rewarding.

Reverb - Party!

2010-12-09T11:32:00.002-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Party. What social gathering rocked your socks off in 2010? Describe the people, music, food, drink, clothes, shenanigans. (Author: Shauna Reid)

Yes, catching up on Reverb10, the week got away from me. Nothing like the snowstorm of the decade to keep one writing!

Party!

I turned 40 in March.

It sucked.

I really wanted a big blow-out bash with all my dear friends, late night, party it up at some hip restaraunt bar. But nope. Life had other plans at the time. I did have a nice time out with a few friends, but most of them bailed early. Luckily it was not far to a friends place so we went there to have a glass of wine. That was the best part of the night.

By May I knew I had to have a bigger party anyhow. All the people I hold near and dear to my heart came for a casual garden party in late July. I wanted to honor them for being so supportive of me and my family during a very trying year. They were the folks that kept me sane and stable during so much chaos.

We all gathered (from near and far, was so honored that 2 friends from far out of town joined us!) on an absolutely perfect summer night. There was an abundance of food, twinkly lights in the garden, my favorite music, tons of laughter and sharing.

Candles burned, glitter was twinkling on the patio, and sure, there were some mosquitoes.

There was such a beautiful glow and flow to everyone, connections were made, hearts were open. If we'd sat together with the intent of manifesting or creating world peace (as opposed to just celebrating each other), we would have blown our socks off.

I was a happy hostess. Of course, I didn't get to chat with everyone for more than about 2 minutes each, but it didn't matter. My chicks were all gathered in my yard and I was a happy Mama Hen.

My heart was overflowing with peace and love for these people. My friends. And I still don't really think they know how much they mean to me. These are powerful, amazing, beautiful people and I am just amazed and honored to be their friend.

It was a great summer party.

reverb - beautifully different

2010-12-08T23:20:00.001-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Beautifully different. Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different - you'll find they're what make you beautiful. (Author: Karen Walrond)

This prompt has been pushing my buttons all day. I put it off. But it kept popping into my head. What the heck would I write? Even while having coffee with two friends today, both of whom are so sweet, kind, funny, gentle, rockin', smart (-asses), beautiful, powerful, I could list all those things about them but not myself. I am surrounded by amazing and beautiful friends and family, all of whom are so different in their own ways, all without a doubt beautiful.

My little niece can tell me I'm beautiful. My grandfather has been the only male in my life to tell me I'm beautiful. (Oh, I take that back, my friend P said it about me the second year of FLP (annual outdoor festival I helped coordinate for a few years) and I bawled for days afterwards.) AND I have always known I am different. In the sushed "oh, she's just a little different" kind of way. It has taken me a long time to accept it. And to love it.

But to write about how I am beautifully different? Publicly?

Right.

When I think about what other people say about me and all the gifts I have and how I uplift their life, I want to cry. And usually do. When a friend calls and waxes poetic about how great I am, I just shake my head and then cry. I cry because I don't see myself the same way, and yet, on some level, I know they are right. But I am so afraid of it going to my head and living from my Ego and not my Truth. I guess I have to let that go.

So ....

Things that make me different?

I love the cluttered look of stacks of books. There are few things that will surprise me. But I do love surprises. The stories I tell are sometimes too elaborate. I can use my inner GPS to get almost anywhere.

I love fiercely.

There is a song in my head at all times. I can bring people together. I can see everyone's Light. And their darkness. But I accept them both. I am a shy person with an extrovert longing.

My intuition is so strong some days I don't know how to make it practical. I can bring the energy of a crystal into being by intention. My soul wants to sing out loud but I don't let it, since my voice scares even me. I have met a Spirit Guide in human form.

My creative self has TONS of ideas about a lot of things to create. My heart will burst to overflowing when my friends and family are all in one place with me. Music brings me messages. The Love of my Life hasn't shown up yet but I am asking for him to get on the ball. My spiritual connection grows deeper every day and it sometimes involves aliens. I know a little bit about a lot of stuff.

And some day, I will realize I am beautiful.

Reverb - Community

2010-12-07T14:54:00.004-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Community. Where have you discovered community, online or otherwise, in 2010? What community would you like to join, create or more deeply connect with in 2011? (Author: Cali Harris)

Community has been in my thoughts for a few days (well, months, actually). This is going to sound odd, but for most of my life I have had a love/hate relationship with 'community.' I go through phases where I really dig in and love my community of friends or community at large, participate, encourage it, etc, and I am completely happy. There is something deeply comforting, nurturing, and wholesome about all the communities I have been a part of, and I thrive on bringing everyone together as one big happy family.

And then, suddenly, I don't.

Something shifts, the community just fades away, or I have an experience that throws my life into a tailspin and I have to hide for a while. Without a doubt I absolutely love my quiet life, spending time with mostly just ME and select few of family and friends. My cave of self is lovely and easy. A community is not always easy. I like easy.

But I have come to see that I really do need both. And I love both.

Starting in 2009 and throughout 2010 I really had to step back from my community for many reasons, and my community extended to many area's and groups of people. It wasn't that anything "happened", I just had to find myself again. That's my "catch" sometimes in community, I lose my Self. I was also seeing my community at large with new eyes and not necessarily liking what I was seeing. My judgments about what was happening just got too harsh and I hated being judgmental. The judgments, of course, were a reflection of what was going on within myself. Time to look deep within myself has been a huge blessing in 2010 and has deeply shifted my life and being.

But now ... NOW I would like to balance my need for a larger community around me with my own Self time. There is such a need for my local holistic & spiritual community to come together. For WHAT, I am not exactly sure, but maybe that doesn't matter. There are all these little groups of people and practitioners, but we don't necessarily interact with each other. We can learn from and support each other. As more people awaken into spirituality and more to life, we need to be the beacons to show the way. This might be a lofty ideal, but I am hopeful.

As far as my "personal" community, I think I want to grow my tribe. I am amazingly blessed to have a small number of friends who keep me sane and laughing. They are my soulpeeps. But my heart is still learning to Trust. Heaven forbid I jump in and end up getting scarred for the umpteenth time. But I am learning. Slooooowly learning. My heart longs for the day when I can just truly really deeply be MYSELF and jump in to express myself fully. My community deserves that from me.

And I will get there. I know I will. I TRUST I will.

Reverb - Make

2010-12-06T21:17:00.004-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Make. What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it? (Author: Gretchen Rubin)

Today's post is simple. Holiday cookies pre-frosting. This was my favorite cookie cutter as a kid. Materials used: butter, flour, sugar, vanilla, etc. And yes, I want to make more jewelry, PMC, and collages and TOTALLY need to make time for it.

Reverb - Let Go

2010-12-05T20:39:00.003-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why? (Author: Alice Bradley)

Ahhh.

Life sure is funny. How can one little question be so big?

Yes.

I let go of A LOT this year. See my first Reverb10 post to see what changes I've experienced, and you'll get an idea.

This question is Big (yes, with a capital "B") because of the timing. The Divine sure does have a sense of humor. One year ago on exact date, I let go of something in my life. At the time, I was following my intuition, 6 weeks of "you need to do this NOW." Little nudges here and there. Every time I felt it, I would dismiss it. My brain would say, "NO, I can't do that, it's not right or fair, and I made a commitment. And if I do this, what then?!" But the little voice within kept poking until I couldn't ignore it any longer.

I didn't know why.

My ego didn't want to do it. I certainly had no clue what I was going to do after letting go.

And I really had no idea how BIG it would change my life until many months later, in many ways. But I knew I had to TRUST it.

The day AFTER I let go of this big thing, my mom found out she had cancer.

And my intuition went, "See, we told you."

It all became clear about why I had to let go.

And I would not change a thing.

That's not to say the past year hasn't had its challenges and I still have LOTS of creating, learning, and growing to do. But I feel so blessed in so many ways. I trust my intuition SO much more (even though I really thought I trusted it previously). I have a whole new life. I know myself. There are amazing people around me. My mom is now healthy and thriving more than she has in years. My family is stronger.

The old addage is right ... when one door closes, another opens.

Or, maybe, a whole wall crumbles and reveals Life.

Reverb - Wonder

2010-12-04T00:29:00.002-06:00

Today's Reverb10 Prompt: Wonder. How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year? (Author: Jeffrey Davis)

Need I say more?

Well, okay, if you insist.

This is the easiest prompt yet, without hesitation I knew my answer and which photo to include. My dear neice Flora is 4 1/2. Most people know she is the absolute JOY of my life. (My twin 8 almost 9 year old nephews are as well. Thank god for my brother having kids!) My life is so enriched and blessed with her in it. How can it not be when everything is pink and girly and frilly? She is a true fairy girl, oh excuse me, PRINCESS girl (I heard her argue with me about it in my head), and she sees magic in every single moment.

Everything is "Ooooh I loooove pink. Ooooh I loooove my chocolate. Oooh look at the pretty sparkly lights, Jenn you missed the sparkly lights! Go back, you have to seeeeeee! I loooove how snowflakes taste. I like you, Jenn, you're my best friend. I loooove Princess dresses." She knows fairies are real, she is intuitive as all get out, and she sees the beauty and joy of the world everywhere.

I have so many stories about her that I should write down.

She has taught ME to see the wonder and beauty in everything even more. She has taught me that Pink is Good. She will always keep me laughing and smiling and knowing that all is right with the world when Flora is in it. She has taught me Love.

We have a treasure chest that is a rosemalled chest that my grandmother painted many years ago. When the Boys were little I decided to put special gifts in it and told them that I heard knocking in the treasure chest. To this day, the 8 year old BOYS still ask if I heard knocking in the treasure chest last night, and/or run upstairs to check it and now their little sister has also started asking and checking. Most of the time it's empty of course, but on occasions when there are little gifts, everyone is happy. Today was a sweet day with the treasure chest. Flora & I went upstairs to check it, and when she opened it, instead of complaining that it was empty, she states, "Ooooh, it's full of kisses!!" and blows me a big kiss in the air.

THAT, my friends, is true Wonder.

for a friend ~

2010-12-03T11:45:00.001-06:00

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Reverb - Moment

2010-12-03T00:33:00.002-06:00

Day Three Reverb10 Prompt: Moment. Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors). (Author: Ali Edwards)

Just ONE?

I really did have a spectacular summer and have had some beautiful, amazing moments this year.

Visiting beautiful peaceful Savannah, Georgia, walking the streets, watching the people from all over the world, smelling coffee on one corner and seafood on the other. Walking on the beach at nearby Tybee Island, feeling nothing other than complete presence and peace, watching the waves flow in and out, and even feeling the sun beating so hard on your skin, knowing you're getting sunburned. Oh but forgetting the sunscreen and being beet red and in pain for days was so worth the moment of seeing my mom actually walk on the beach without falling and for miles even (when she can't walk more than a few hundred feet without tiring at home), and knowing the peacefulness it was bringing to her heart as well.

Sitting in my garden at the height of summer, curled up in my purple chair, colored twinkly lights above me, a glass of wine in one hand, knowing that the only moment I had was right then and there. I didn't have to be a caregiver or a friend, I didn't have to even be ME, I could just melt into the starry sky and full moon above me, sing with my heart as I danced through the ethers, looking for my one true love, hearing his voice calling me home. There was no time, no space, and life just flowed in perfection.

See, I can't just pick one, I have to continue. I'm a rebel.

I also felt so alive when the journey was hard, as odd as that sounds. The days when I was exhausted to the core and I could not focus on more than getting dressed and getting food in my body. That's it. Couldn't even wash my face or brush my teeth, the thought just tired me out. I would just sit on the couch, try to breathe, and then the phone would ring. A friendly gentle voice would ask how I was, the tears would start to fall (as they are now again), and I would hear loving words of support that one never really feels or understands until there is no sense of hope left. And then life would move on to the next "thing." It was feeling vulnerable and lost and hopeless, which in turn becomes light and grace to carry me through.

There was a party I threw last summer. Invited my favorite friends, and we dined in the backyard and talked and laughed and laughed and laughed. Of all the beautiful faces and conversations, great food, and laughing, my favorite moment was standing in the garden with a friend who was admiring the flowers in my garden. Standing next to each other, having him ask what each one was, knowing there was higher "work" being done, the rest of the world disappeared. Then again I was caught up in the joy of being hostess, and in the moments when I did sit in the circle of my peeps, I knew I was loved, and my heart filled to bursting.

Moments with Flora, Kai & Kaedon and the rest of my family, with friends, on the North Shore, travelling, participating in a friends wedding, making art, walking around the lakes, eating great food and desserts .... life has swell moments, doesn't it?

reverb - writing

2010-12-02T16:42:00.003-06:00

Day Two Reverb10 Prompt: Writing. What do you do each day that doesn't contribute to your writing -- and can you eliminate it? (Author: Leo Babauta)

Welllll well well.

It has taken me all day to get to this post. It kind of side swiped me. Do I really want to focus on writing? SO many people keep nudging me to write, but is it really what I want?

Well, yes, it is, actually. I have been writing since I was a kid. Journals were my daily friends all the way past college. And then I stopped. I am not sure why really, but I did. There have been moments of journalling again over the years. Nothing floats my boat with it though. But then I started Whispers of Spirit with a friend. I was forced to write again. And then my own website evolution has asked me to write more. Lately my inner guidance is asking me to write more as well. I have things to share. My inner critic, of course, screams, "What the hell do YOU have to share?!" Even this morning a client/friend asked me about channeling, wondering if I was doing it. Not sure why she asked it, I just said, "Yeah, I am getting to it."

So anyhow, when Reverb10 came up the other day, I knew it was a divinely timed moment.

I feel like there are numerous things in my day that are distractions, things that take me away from what I really *should* be doing. But then again, I also trust in the Divine process of Life and know there are NO SHOULD's any time, any where.

BUT ... that being said, the bulk of my career and business is online, so I am on the computer for many hours a day. I would hate to admit how much of that time is actually spent on facebook alone. But much of even that is business and messaging friends, checking on events and Pages, etc. Yep, excuses, those are. I am an admitted multi-tasking junkie. I can be chatting on IM with a friend while reading fb, downloading itunes, and working on my website simultaneously. But is that healthy and wise?

Okay, so, YES, I can by all means eliminate some of my "wasted" time online. I am choosing to be as efficient and quick as possible with emails, facebook, websites, etc, so that I can devote a minimum of a half hour a day writing. Writing that includes this blog, my classes and workshops, and e-books that I have had in my head foreeeeeever, as well as channeling that seems to be pushing its way in. A half hour might not seem like much, but to me, it is significant and I can actually get quite a bit done in that amount. I choose to increase that amount after January 1. :)

Rock on.

reverb - one word

2010-12-01T14:27:00.002-06:00

Day One Reverb10 Prompt:One Word.
Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you? (Author Gwen Bell)

Well.

Not necessarily an easy task since I have had a doooozy of a year.

But my one word would have to be CHANGE.

It started almost exactly one year ago. Changed friends, changed my office, changed health (my mental health and my mom's health), changed my lifestyle (became primary caregiver for my mom through her cancer journey), changed my thoughts, beliefs, ideas about many many things, changed how I see the world, changed my own inner world.

Yep.

It was a lot. Is a lot.

And I am choosing to move forward each and every day in small and big ways. Most people will not realize how BIG all this was, unless you look closely in my eyes, and how it is taking me so much longer than I ever EVER anticipated to "recover". (Though I am not "recovering", I don't like that word. I am moving forward, surrendering to the Divine, and being in the Moment.)

For 2011, I hope my word will be BRILLIANCE.

A dear friend tells me I am brilliant on a pretty regular basis. I never believe him. YET. So I hope that throughout 2011 I can truly embody what he sees in my heart that I don't see/feel just yet, and to truly live with clarity, light, hope, and stunning bright I-gotta-wear-shades Brilliance. I INTEND to be fully ME, to live from my heart wide open, and to welcome in ALL new experiences and connections and LOVE (in all forms).

So there.

:)

Reverb

2010-12-01T14:08:00.000-06:00

So for whatever reason unbeknownst to me (my fingers just kind of signed up as my ......... as I just typed that a spider crawled out from under my laptop!! a sign of creativity for sure!! sheeeesh, okay, I get it, I am on the right path LOL .......... brain in a fog was "do I really have time for that?"), I joined Reverb for December. It's an online blog project with prompts to write or create something each day. It will be a great way for me to focus yet again (I did a similar photo project in August on another blog), especially as things are shifting and changing so quickly.

And I know I need to write more.

And maybe it'll get my other writer friends blogging even MORE (and you know who you are)!

Maybe it'll get my spiritual community blogging more. (If you want help starting a blog, lemme know.)

Maybe pigs will fly.

NO! I'm sorry, just feeling snarky today.

Okay, so today's prompt is up next ....

Whoo hooo!

2010-11-30T16:27:00.000-06:00

I am so grateful

2010-11-24T14:19:00.001-06:00

My heart will truly shatter from how big and overwhelmingly grateful I am for the journey of this past year. Hardest and crappiest year of my life? Sure. But what I have gained for myself and my family is immeasurable. The absolutely true friends who have been there for me without hesitation or personal agenda, as few as they may be, are the light of my life and there will never be enough words to thank them enough for their support, encouragement, and deep honest true LOVE.

This really is an absolutely New Beginning.

This holiday of Thanksgiving means more to me than it has in all my 40 years.

And if I don't shut up now, I'll cry even more.

All my unending LOVE and gratefulness flows to each and every one of you, whether you are close friend or customer, client or blog reader.

latest from Karen

2010-11-15T12:06:00.000-06:00

Karen Bishop (formerly Emerging Earth Angels/What's Up On Planet Earth?) has been peeking around a little more often again. Her latest update hits right on the head, as usual. Sign up for her email list if you aren't already on it at www.emergingearthangels.com

Here's her latest email: http://spiritlibrary.com/karen-bishop/planetary-update-nov-11-2010

Enjoy the ride!!

creativity!

2010-11-12T13:43:00.000-06:00

Almost 20 years ago I picked up The Creative Companion by SARK. It might sound goofy, but I actually do remember the first moment I saw the book on the shelf (in the very first Barnes & Noble in town). I saw it across the room, grabbed it without even opening it up, and brought it home to read the entire thing in one sitting.

It changed my life.

Yeah, sounds odd to have such memory about a book, but it opened my eyes to my own innate creativity that had been there as a kid and then just vanished due to life. Over the years I would buy her books as soon as they came out, and I have loved every single one. (Well, I take that back. I bought one on Friendship a few years ago and due to some unhealthy friendships at the time, found it too painful to read. I have to go back to read it now.) I have met her on several occassions at booksignings here in the Twin Cities and she is exactly like her books, a big messy (in a good way) redheaded firework of creativity.

She has a free teleclass coming up. I've participated in others and I love them. They ooze with self-care, creativity, inspiration, and love. Click the link below to sign up (full disclosure it is an affiliate link to support this blog).

Let me know if you participate what you think.

Blessings!

this is an important blog

2010-11-11T23:11:00.000-06:00

I feel terribly obligated to make this a good blog.

You see, it is my 200th blog.

Sometimes I wonder what I could have possibly said 199 times! It kind of boggles me. I really do strive to write from my heart, share what I know, share what inspires me, and yeah, throw in some business stuff too. But I don't always feel inspired to write these days, and I am not sure why. I have deep blog guilt. I read SO many amazing beautiful blogs every single day (114 in my googlereader, to be exact), and yet, here is my lowly little blog.

BUT ...

I have decided to

My blogging is perfect for me. And it will improve, like the rest of my life. It hasn't been the right timing to put into action all these ideas I have brewing. It has been a year for ME to recover, regroup, recharge, renew, reevaluate, and to basically DIG REALLY DEEP to heal and find ME again.

And I slowly am coming out of my shell.

I am DONE staying small.

I am DONE with thinking I am not good enough.

I am DONE with caring what other people think or have thought or might think about me.

I have spent way too much energy protecting and guarding myself (even though I have needed it on many levels in many circumstances) and am ready to just fly free and not give a damn.

Yep.

Let the swearing begin.

There is SO much more to me than I have allowed to SHINE (or that people have squashed down, consciously or not) and I am ready to start letting it out.

It might be slow and in my own timing, but I will show the world who I really am!

Rock on!

See ya soon~~

if you need me ....

2010-11-06T21:33:00.000-05:00

if you need me the next few days, this is where i'll be ...

(photo from roadfood.com, thanks!)

i'll be checking emails, but not much.

bliss and blessings to you!!!

abundant

2010-11-01T14:08:00.001-05:00

relationships

2010-10-28T13:06:00.000-05:00

Are your relationships changing? Have friends left your life or how you interact with a family member is different? Yeah, it's happening. I've been thinking about this a lot lately.

As we go through such big transformations (or subtle), E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G changes, from tiny things like how we breathe (hopefully its deeper and more) to big things like relationships, jobs, where we live, etc. It is almost inevitable in some form (unless you are living under a rock).

As we let go of the things that we don't need any longer, like those old beliefs of "I'm not worthy enough" or "my past experience of opening my heart hurt me", as well as physical things and emotional ties, we become the stronger, brighter, even more light-filled people that we are meant to become. As this happens, it might not always jive with the people around us.

And that is okay.

Well, I mean, it's a little hard at first, believe me, I know this from experience.

But over time, you will come to see that maybe those people were just gifts for a certain moment in time and they were not meant to be in your life for the long haul. As much as we love people and *want* them to be, it is sometimes better to just let them go.

And then DO NOT FEEL GUILTY about it.

Our friends and family are reflections of ourselves. Of our true inner being. This might be a challenge for some of you to grasp, and that is perfectly okay. Everyone in our lives is here to mirror and show us our beautiful glorious selves, as well as our inner maybe-not-so-glorious aspects of ourselves as well.

Does someone in your life make you feel like a rockstar when you are together? Fantastic! Rock on! This person just knows how to help you shine your light for the world to see!

Does another friend bring up deep emotional issues of self-worth because they are judgmental, critical, or disrespectful to your life path? Great! This is a gift! No really, it IS! They are just showing you that area of yourself that needs a little more LOVE.

And yet .... (and you knew this was coming) ....

How you feel around this person might not be for your highest good ALL the time. Consider where you are at in your life and what you want to focus on. Maybe it is time for you to deal with the self-worth issues, to really look deep within yourself at why you feel less-than or unworthy of being your true self. OR ... maybe it is an indication to speak your truth to this person that you are a beautiful amazing person that they don't really see (otherwise they might not be so critical). OR ... maybe it is time to just walk away.

All scenarios are perfectly acceptable and will absolutely vary from person to person.

In my own life, I have had to step away from many, many people over the years (starting in my early 20's, so I know this lesson well!). For one reason or another, people that have not supported my chosen path, have been misaligned with my intent, are so self-absorbed that they weren't a true friend, or for whatever reason, I have had to step into my own power to say either directly or indirectly, enough is enough. I am not worthy of being stepped on, taken advantage of, our intents do not align with the highest good, and we simply do not need to be in each others energies. It has been hard. On many levels. It is even harder when you thought you *really* truly knew and loved the friends and yet you still have to let them go from your life.

But the GIFT of all these experiences has been that I can really see where people mirror me. Every single experience has been exactly as it was meant to be for the time. As shitty and emotional as some of the interactions were, I can honestly say each and every person has taught me so much. Sure, I might miss one or two of these friends, but I know that at some point they might return to my life when we are both in better states of being. Or not. I am just fine with either scenario. AND I have had friends I let go of come back into my life in perfect and divine ways, and even have heard, "I am so grateful we parted, it allowed me to become a better person." What a blessing and I am so grateful to have a new friendship.

The relationships you have might also change as you are in them. Right now I have a few different relationships that are so different from each other. One dear dear friend of 7 years has not returned my phone calls for 6 weeks. Another friend who might not know the real me on a physical level knows me so deeply on a soul level. A person I was pretty close to for a long time seems to be just gone for now. A new friend wants to get together for coffee and I just can't ever find time. And all of these experiences are perfect. My ego gets in the way every so often and wonders "what the hell?!" or "what did I do wrong?!" or "maybe I need to be more bold".

But I know on a soul level that we are all exactly where we need to be right now. All these friendships will shift and flow where they need to be in each moment, and I have no expectations or requirements about their "outcome." I trust the friends and the Universe to guide us. I also trust and know that the "right" friends (even though they are all right on some level) will ALLOW ME TO CHANGE and adapt to who I am in each moment, because honestly, I change a dozen times a day right now.

I have a whole LOT of beautiful people in my life that I know have my back and are there for me in any moment. There have been old friends and acquaintances reappearing (thank god for facebook) from many different parts of my life and new people showing up, and they all are bringing such blessings to me (some of them I would have never ever predicted!). My dearest closest friend right now is someone that I was initially very cautious of, but as we came together at the exact right moment, we have become such strong supports and mirrors for each other. We have both grown so much this year and I would not be the same person without her. Even if other people don't see her amazing light and gifts, I know the Universe conspired to bring us together. We allow each other to change and grow, we have fun together, we do spiritual work together, and we also allow each other to be our own person.

I could not be more grateful.

My point is to allow your relationships to change. Don't get stuck in the idea that because you have been friends with someone for 18 years you are required to stay friends for the rest of your life. Be who YOU truly are in each moment and know that the people who are meant to stay in your life WILL. Open your heart and stand in your own light. Know the right people are always there at the right time. Trust that each person will show you yourself and honor and love that person in each moment. Only YOU will know who is meant to stay in your life. I truly LOVE each and every person that has been in my life and always will (and that includes you, dear reader across the internetwaves!). I am so blessed.

October?!

2010-10-01T13:11:00.001-05:00

October 1?

Now wait just one minute.

What happened to September? What happened to the whole summer, for that matter?

I seriously cannot wrap my head around the fact that it is FALL. Like, autumn, leaves are changing color, it is getting cooler type fall.

I have looked at the golden tree's and seriously had the thought that that just isn't right, it's too early.

My brain has also seen all the leaves on my patio then done a "What the heck, where did these leaves come from?"

It just does not seem right.

Is it only me?

After some discussion with my mom, however, and my realizations that I can't STOP time, we have both come to the conclusion that time really did just STOP for us for a few months this year. Everything came to a standstill while we attended to her health. December through about April are seriously a blur, I can't remember too much. Other than hospital stays, doctor's appointments, chemo sessions, panicked phone calls to dad.... It took all our effort just to get food in our bodies and then head off to whichever appointment she had.

Illness consumes everything.

Everything else just stopped.

Mom was officially cancer-free as of mid-June, after they removed her spleen. Slowly but surely she started getting better. In mid-July she took off for Atlanta for more recovery time. And I really had GOOD SUMMER RELAXATION time for myself. I ENJOYED every minute of it. Soaked it all up and was finally feeling back to ME and in a groove of light and life.

And then "FALL" hit. Kids back in school (not that I have my own, but my nephews), the collective consciousness of "let's start something new", getting my business ready for an expo at the end of September, etc. BUSY.

Life just got BUSY with STUFF.

So now that I have a little breathing space again, this whole TIME thing is just throwing me for a loop. It moves so FAST and I almost can't catch my breath. There are so many projects on my to-do lists, and yet there never seems to be enough time in a day. It is my lesson to really truly live in the MOMENT.

I guess I will just take one moment at a time, breathe, move in baby steps, and see what happens.

perfect protest

2010-09-30T11:40:00.000-05:00

Holy tamoley where does the time go?!

I have been experiencing Blog Guilt for not updating lately. But then I saw this post.

I am LIVING LIFE. Even if it sometimes moves too fast. And looooooordy knows I am so not perfect at it at ALL! This post is especially timely for a friend of mine as well, who might want to pick up Brene's new book. ;)

Back to life .... But I WILL be back blogging soon!

biz stuff

2010-09-11T13:10:00.000-05:00

Hey kiddo's!

I AM s l o w l y working on an email with updates about Crystalline Light business stuff. It's been a long year of not really focusing on it, so I kind of feel like I am needing to re-launch, which is a *great* thing! There are so many shifts in how I do my work and what I am offering. But some quick notes I wanted to get out to you:

*Wednesday, September 15, I am in St Cloud at the fantastic Mind Body & Spirit offering Amethyst BioMat and Energy Healing sessions from 2:30 - 6:30 pm. Call them for appointments. www.mindbodyspirit-online.com

*Saturday, September 25, is the Hudson Holistic & Psychic Fair. Come see me and Karen (plus Diana & Frank of Wind Water Harmony & Grateful Dowsing, as well as other great vendors & friends), pick up some new mists or crystals, experience an energy healing or reading, and just have fun! www.bodylabusa.com

*I am in the midst of creating some new travel size mists, new essences, new jewelry, plus offering new services of custom essence or mist blends, social media consulting, website designing, etc etc (some of this I have already offered, but not made it as public as I am being pushed to now!).

*Even though I don't have a regular office location at the moment, you can still SHOP ANY time at my home office in St Paul.

*My classes are now going to be offered on a REQUEST basis. Yep, you have to step up and actually VOICE what you'd like to learn or experience. ;) I'll still schedule a few things as nudged, however, including a new Social Media & Marketing for Holistic Practitioners and Spiritual Empowerment classes. Contact me for details or to request! Thanks~

FULL details about all this will be on my email newsletter SOON! (Like Monday!) If you haven't signed up for it yet, you can do so HERE.

Thanks all!! Blessings!

more on being human

2010-09-06T23:54:00.001-05:00

I am so grateful to be able to share my spontaneous thoughts with you via video (see previous post), but aaalllllll day long something kept nudging at me about clarification about being human and spiritual. Hopefully it won't make it more confusing. ;)

We are multi-dimensional beings. We live simultaneously in many dimensions and realms at once, AND we are in the process of moving into a fifth dimensional world (and beyond). The human bodies we are given are a HUGE gift.

Every. other. dimension. and. realm. is looking to US, the little teeeeeeny tiny humans, to learn and experience and to see if we can actually pull it off this time. We are in the process of NOT blowing up the world. By shifting out vibration higher, to more light and LOVE, we are consciously choosing to alter a 26,000 year cycle that in eons past, we had decided to blow up our existence and start over.

We are not starting over this time.

We are still going.

On purpose.

THIS little fact is important because these human bodies we have are unique. NO ONE ELSE in the universe has them. And no one else gets to EXPERIENCE life in all its joys and sorrows and rollercoasters and LOVEliness. Why would you not want to experience everything, all the goodness as well as the sucks and hurts and it makes you cry moments? There is so much MORE goodness and light and FUN and joy and giggling and true pure freedom that makes it all worthwhile.

So to be able to be in our human bodies while ALSO allowing for our deep connection to God/Source/ethers/Universe whatever you want to name it for yourself, is a rare thing. We can stay connected in all those other levels, and I really ENCOURAGE you to, because it is a GRAND journey to be aware and connected. Our lessons will stay the same no matter where we operate from. I can kinda maybe guarantee that when you are grounded in your physical body, however, the lessons won't be as hard, because we have the tools to deal with them. There is not any less awareness or connection when we are grounded in our bodies, nor is there any judgment for being too spiritual or not human enough. We can allow ourselves to be both.

It really doesn't have to be hard to be human.

We have choice to make each moment easy or sucky.

But to be able to have the choice while also connected to our spiritual selves and the Divine realm of possibility makes it all so much easier and FLOWY and GOOD. Even if our choice is sucky, we can stay connected, learn what we need to learn, and get on with it so much quicker than if we choose to ignore the spiritual aspects of ourselves.

The intuitive divine flow of creation is there waiting for us to tap into it. Even while we are still in our bodies.

So why not jump in?! The water is fine!

And do keep breathing. Deeply. And often. Well, don't stop, actually.

Connect within yourself, feel your connection to God, feel the connection to the earth, and boom shake it like a true multi-dimensional human!

You will rock it!

Ciao for now!

Being Human & Spiritual

2010-09-06T14:16:00.000-05:00

Rules for Being Human

2010-09-06T12:03:00.000-05:00

Dr. Chérie Carter-Scott's Rules of Life:

The Ten Rules For Being Human

Rule One - You will receive a body.
You may love it or hate it, but it will be yours for the duration of your life on Earth.

Rule Two - You will be presented with lessons.
You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called "life". Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lessons or hate them, but you have designed them as part of your curriculum.

Rule Three - There are no mistakes, only lessons.
Growth is a process of experimentation, a series of trials, errors and occasional victories. The failed experiments are as much as a part of the process as the experiments that work.

Rule Four - The lesson is repeated until learned.
Lessons will be repeated to you in various forms until you have learned them. When you have learned them, you can go on to the next lesson.

Rule Five - Learning does not end.
There is no part of life that does not contain lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.

Rule Six - "There" is no better than "here".
When your "there" has become "here" you will simply obtain another "there" that will look better to you than your present "here".

Rule Seven - Others are only mirrors of you.
You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself.

Rule Eight - What you make of your life is up to you.
You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you.

Rule Nine - Your answers lie inside of you.
All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.

Rule Ten - You will forget all this at birth.
You can remember it if you want by unraveling the double helic of inner-knowing.

http://www.drcherie.com/rules_for_being_human.php

You Are Loved

2010-09-05T23:50:00.001-05:00

Just have to share a few links ... josh groban has such beautiful light and talent, and has brought me a great amount of relief and inspiration and comfort tonight and over the years. Enjoy and let both (two links here) soak into your being!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rnztMhtUF6o

blessings

2010-09-04T14:51:00.000-05:00

Life has been a little bit in chaos lately.

But it's okay, it's all temporary as I clear out the old and move into the New.

This morning I was feeling so blessed and it was from the simplest things.

I was visiting a favorite farmers market that is in a beautiful setting. Next to the river, in a renovated Mill, with a stunningly blue sky and perfect fall day (even though I refuse to admit it is fall yet, because technically its NOT). A light breeze that felt so crisp and clean. Just seeing all the colors, the bounty of a summer of hard work in the gardens, the creations of all the independent food and craft artisans ... it is a sight to behold. Purchasing yummy veggies, smoked trout, divine chevre cheese, and sampling a little lavender chocolate is such a simple thing really.

I ran into good friends, we stood to chat just for a few minutes.

The whole hour or so made me feel so blessed.

And THEN to realize I *could* have gone to the bathroom in the Guthrie Theatre next door (I didn't, my meter was running out, but I HAVE in the past)! I mean, hello, WHERE else on earth can you do THAT?! One of the greatest theatre's in the country!

Bliss.

Where do you find your joys?

clearing clutter

2010-09-03T16:15:00.000-05:00

I have been attempting to clear clutter from my bedroom and office for a few weeks. It's not horrible, just piles of papers, rocks, beads, etc, that are taking up room. This morning I cleared off one bookshelf that had all this little stuff piled up. Just put it all in a box and will divvy it up this afternoon to its various homes or recycling.

Wouldn't ya know it, within about a half hour, I felt better?

The past few days have been a challenge of emotions and really tuning within myself to clear some old beliefs that I don't want to hang to any longer. It's all good, but the process is not always fun. Looking at yourself and really truly changing is a hard thing, but in the "end" (though there really is no ending), we are always "rewarded" or bumped up to another level of being that is much more supportive and "light".

Clutter can hold us up from moving forward. And clutter can take many forms, whether physical, emotional, mental, etc. My own emotional clutter had me stymied. As has been said numerous times over the recent years and months and weeks, anything that is not enhancing or serving our life in a positive way simply WILL NOT remain in our life. As much as we may want it to or *think* that a belief or person or couch is really for our highest good, the Universe will make it VERY clear if it is not supposed to remain in your life. What we resist, persists. When we move into the flow of the Divine, the Divine will rearrange itself to bring us to where we need to be always.

Our ego's are really good at the games of keeping us at comfortable levels of being, what we know to be easy and comfortable is always going to be such unless we release the hold on our mind and what we THINK we know to be true. When we look within ourselves or our hearts for the answers, we will really truly find the heart of what space we are meant to occupy.

So once we stop resisting and just surrender to the flow of the Universe, we will be guided and supported in ways we cannot even imagine at this point. There is so much more available to us than we can comprehend, and I think it is purposely designed that way, so that we don't freak out. We need to just believe and KNOW that we are supported in ALL ways. When we ALLOW ourselves to accept our own innate Divinity as whole and perfect, everything else falls into place.

The times right now are SO supportive of clearing out physical possessions, relationships, thought patterns, beliefs, old pots and pans, clothes that don't fit, etc. MOST of my friends and clients are in this process right now whether they want to be or not. I certainly don't like to be here, but when it is in my face that it has to CHANGE, why fight it? It just gets harder and harder if we ignore it.

Movement WILL and does happen when the clutter is cleared. On so many levels. Trusting in the process is HUGE.

~*On a side note: this post has taken me ALL day, okay well more like 4 hours, to write. As I started writing I found myself distracted by many other things -- CLUTTER -- as well as my own belief about being able to say the "right" words. Now that I can accept within myself that it's not possible to say the wrong words and I can just say whatever the hell I need to, it is flowing much easier. :-D

Soooo don't know if this all makes sense, but that's all.

blessings!

getting clear

2010-08-22T11:52:00.002-05:00

Soooo, that stuff I wrote earlier about my passion returning....

Yeah.

Didn't last long.

But it was great while it did.

It's just the name of the game these days.

Nothing lasts forever.

There is a whole new slew of stuff that is "up" for people right now, and even though we say stuff like

"this is the time for clearing what you don't need any more"
and
"the energies right now are a doozy" (and it's 11:11 on my clock right now, just FYI)
and
"it's just an intense time!"

It's all TRUE in every moment it is stated, but I am learning that it is NEVER the LAST time it'll be said.

We will be processing, clearing, releasing, balancing, blahblahblah until we are dead.

     Get used to it.

I know it sounds brutal, but really, think about it, we're human. Not only do we have this lifetime of emotional attachments, issues, beliefs, thoughts, to clear that are not beneficial to our life, but we are also clearing MANY MANY other lifetimes -- OODLES of them -- RIGHT NOW IN THIS LIFETIME.

Crap!

That's hard!

BUT ....

that does NOT mean we won't get to a place of JOYFUL, HAPPY, BALANCED, CALM, PEACEFUL, BLISSFUL lives.

We WILL.

We HAVE to!

    (Right?)

I personally HAVE felt it, even if for brief moments or weeks. But it was THERE, and I can hang on to that feeling of amazing freedom and LOVE with all my will to keep me going.

AND ... I have amazing friends who keep me filled with peptalks and Love. Thank freakin' god.

That, and True Blood.

Really keeps me sane.

The emotional sideswipes can be a challenge, but if we remember to just keep breathing, stay centered in Love and not go into fear, and then really go WITHIN ourselves - not outside of ourselves to our guides or higher self or teacher/healer/intuitive reader - for answers and support, it gets easier. The inner emotional work isn't easy, we really have to look closely at why this sideswipe/issue/emotional outburst is staring us in the face, follow the thread back to where it came from, and then clear it ourselves through surrounding it with love, seeing it as a gift that has served us at one point in our lives, and releasing it's physical/emotional/mental/spiritual hold on us. We don't need beliefs or thoughts that hold us back from our True Self, which is always gloriously Divine, Whole, Perfect, and Love. The hardest work we can do is clear our "stuff", but it IS also the most rewarding knowing we did it and can move on.

All that being said (and it was so not planned to write all that, apparently it needed to be said!) ... we are in Mercury Retrograde right now. The typical view of this is that all communications go wonky, computer and phone issues act up, etc etc. True. But not the whole story.

This is a FANtastic time to GO WITHIN.

(Oh, hmmmm, wasn't I just reading about that somewhere??)

It is time to retreat, rest, reevaluate, etc, as Evolutions so eloquently states (LOVE her blog). Clear up any projects that are holding you up, get your ducks in a row, be diligent about making room for new things, EVEN if you have NO freakin' clue what that is yet! Believe me, I am so taking this one to heart and really looking at where I have to clear things up - as the Universe so totally smacked me upside the head with it a few days ago in a way that was shocking and can't be ignored - and as hard as it's going to be, I feel like the past few months have really prepared me to step up and deal with it without being a total freak out. (Okay, I might freak a little bit, but not as much.) Some day, there really is a BOOK coming out of this year's events and upheavals, I know there is, or maybe it's just my ego wanting some stroking after all the sh*t of 2010 that I had to endure.

Oh wait. Not endure. That I CREATED.

   Right.

Stupid stupid me.

I want to see the contract I signed long ago, I am pretty sure it is FORGED by some other soul that thought she'd play a pretty good joke this lifetime.

Ha.

So not laughing.

But I digress. On SOME level, I really am grateful for this time, and I wouldn't have it any other way. The stuff I am learning and being is amazing. Despite all the crap, there are HUGE gifts.

My reminder to you right now is to hold the faith, hold the light, meditate within as often as you can, breathe in Love, and be true to your heart.

And then go do a big silly dance in your front yard at noon.

Okay, or 2 am, your choice.

I did.

August energetic update video

2010-08-15T17:10:00.001-05:00

lakota prayer

2010-08-08T12:07:00.000-05:00

Lakota Prayer

Wakan Tanka, Great Mystery,
teach me how to trust
my heart,
my mind,
my intuition,
my inner knowing,
the senses of my body,
the blessings of my spirit.

Teach me to trust these things
so that I may enter my Sacred Space
and love beyond my fear,
and thus Walk in Balance
with the passing of each glorious Sun.

event updates for August

2010-08-05T12:35:00.000-05:00

Amethyst BioMat & Multi-Dimensional Healings
at Mind Body Spirit

Experience the healing energies of Amethyst and Far infrared heat!biomat

The Amethyst BioMat is a healing mat combining 30 pounds of Amethyst crystals with Far Infrared Heat, used to heal on all levels. Its various heat settings promote detoxification, stress reduction, cell regeneration, muscle and joint relaxation, as well as a deeper spiritual and energetic connection and a "bump up" in energy. As an FDA approved medical device, it is assisting clients in many ways for full health benefits. Jennifer offers sessions with just the Amethyst BioMat or in addition to Multi-Dimensional energy healing.

Multi-Dimensional Healing is a new form of energy healing, bringing you to a new space of higher vibration and clarity. By simultaneously utilizing energy clearing, Reiki, sound healing, crystals, as well as multi-dimensional Angelic and Source energies, you are supporting your own personal intent for growth and are clearing any discordant energies that are not supportive of your highest good. The intent is to align you with higher vibrational energies to maintain health on all levels.

Saturday, August 7
10:30 am - 2:30 pm

at
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915 W St Germain, St Cloud MN

Just the BioMat:
15 minutes $20 / 30 minutes $35

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REGISTER: Call MBS @ 320.203.9630 for appointments, or drop in!
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Friday, August 13
4 - 7 pm
&
Saturday, August 14
10 am - 2 pm

15 minutes $25 / 30 minutes $50

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Call Jennifer for appointments 651-705-6760 or email jennifer@crystallinelight.com

Multi-Dimensional Healings or Crystalline Guidance SPECIAL OFFER
sessions in St Paul

It has been guided to offer sessions on a donation basis for a few weeks. Between August 6 & 26 ONLY I am offering Multi-Dimensional Healings or Crystalline Guidance sessions at my home office in St Paul on a donation basis. Seriously. You simply pay what you feel guided to offer in exchange for my services. I would love for you to experience the work that is my joy and service to the world. My schedule is flexible to accommodate your needs (though there are a few days I am out of town during this time), so contact me at 651-705-6760 or email jennifer@crystallinelight.com to line up your appointment.

Thank you!

www.crystallinelight.com

Passion returns!

2010-08-02T11:42:00.000-05:00

It has been a great few days of inspiration in unexpected places. Slowly but surely I have been feeling my passion and joy return (after many months of being deep in the reality of illness and caregiving), and my heart is just about bursting at times because I love the world so much.

For a few months now there has been a gnawing at my soul to do something new, even though I am not sure what that means or what form it will take. Yesterday I had a huge "OOOOOOHH!!" moment and created something new. Something non-metaphysical (well, in most regards, since you can't really take that out of me) and deeply creative. It's allowing me to express myself in a manner that has been forgotten for so many years. I was almost giddy at how FUN this was to create. Granted, it may not bring me money or be a new "job" by any means, but that doesn't even matter. It allows me to BE who I really am, to express myself creatively and juicily (is that a word?!), and captures so many beautiful moments.

And then afterwards, I ate a cupcake.

Emmanuel's message today about August and our passions returning really spoke to me, and I am so grateful! Sure, this type of message we usually hear repeatedly, but each time a new message shows up, it either resonates or it doesn't. There have been so many over the past months that I could have cared less about (with NO disrespect to any of the authors). Anyhow, there is always more releasing to do, but remember that releasing brings new beginnings also. :)

Know that you are loved and supported, and that the JOY will return!

Love is in the Air

2010-07-31T15:49:00.002-05:00

I was so happy to read Blossom's blog today about how so many of her single friend's have been finding their true love and new partners.

I have been dreaming about "a love" (not sure who he is, and actually his face keeps changing, so I just think it is lots of possibilities) at least once or twice a week for about 2 months now, except for the past 4 nights it's been every single night. The dreams are always different scenario's, but the FEELING is always the same ... pure JOY, unconditional love, deep connection, lots of FUN and LIGHT, and someone I have no doubt I want to spend a good deal of time with (maybe not rest of my life, but indefinitely), and most importantly, it is a mutual respectful relationship that benefits both of us on so many levels. Whenever I wake from these dreams I want to immediately go BACK to sleep to hang on to the feeling of it, to not let the preciousness of it go. Of course I know on some other realm these relationships are actually happening. It can sometimes hang with me all day, which is sometimes good and sometimes not, since I want that feeling is THIS 3-D life.

Relationships are changing. It doesn't have to be HARD anymore. It shouldn't be HARD to love someone, and if it is, possibly there are personal emotions or resistances being pushed that need to be addressed. As we go through so many other shifts and changes and find those new places to BE in, our relationships are bound to change as well. Sometimes this isn't always as expected, as we may have to let go of longtime friends or husbands or sisters or whoever doesn't fully support or love ALL that we are as a person. I would have never planned to release a few friends from my life over the past years, but it always ended up being the absolute best thing I could do and I had so much more clarity about the lack of respect or true friendship or *whatever* when I was away from it for a bit. (And sometimes they do come back into your life, for which I am grateful to also have experienced.)

I truly believe and FEEL that in the new paradigm, intimate and loving relationships will become a more equal, mutual, honest, open, caring, and real. How we interact with our partners will even change, there will be more freedom for both to just BE who they are without worry of "if I do my woo-woo stuff will he disapprove of me?" or "but if I enjoy my hobby of NASCAR races she'll think I'm a bonehead". Shouldn't we always be free to just BE who we are? Why bend yourself to meet someone else's needs or expectations?

But I digress .... :) There are so many more possibilities for HOW to have a relationship that even I thought possible. I feel it as lucious, blissful, deeply connected, and beyond amazing (and our new partners will NOT even think those are wierd words! LOL).

It's TIME for us ALL to have loving joyful relationships!

I'm ready.

Bring it on!

soul singing

2010-07-21T17:22:00.001-05:00

Ahhhh yes, today is a good day.

Nothing in particular or special happening. I'm cleaning actually, like all out deep cleaning, wiping walls & shelves, rearranging stuff. Really deep, hasn't-been-done-for-about-8-months type cleaning. Even though I am sweating and stinky, since I've also spent a few hours outdoors pulling weeds, I feel really good.

As I was kneeling to pull a weed, I heard a little "tune" of music. I actually gasped a little, thinking, "What IS that?"

Then I realized ....

    My soul is starting to sing again.

The singing is hard to explain. Peaceful, brilliant, bright, loving, unexpected .... from a place deep within that you don't even know it exists. All encompassing.

    And then the tears come.

        Again.

But it's all good. This journey deserves tears of joy and sadness. For so many reasons. ALL of them good, despite what may seem as hard, pissy, stupid, or just outright bad and dark. The joy, LOVE, peace, comfort, support, and even moments of bliss balance it all out and I am grateful for every single moment.

The past few months I have chosen to focus on three things ...

LOVE. In all ways, breathing it in, breathing it out, being in, embodying it.
ME. Taking care of ME and nurturing myself, in whatever way that means in each second.
FUN. It's SUMMER for cryin' out loud, what else would I choose? (See previous post with my List!) I want to experience fun summer things that make me happy, with the people that make me happy, and in ways that can only bring me more JOY.

I'm not sayin' there won't be challenges to come, but the fact that my soul is singing again makes it all worthwhile.

Can I just HUG the whole world right now?! THAT is how good day is, so I want to send an energetic hug to each and every one of you!

Oh watch out there, your shoulder might get a little wet though, since these tears of Joy are spreading!

summer summer time ....

2010-07-15T22:47:00.000-05:00

Great Unfolding meditations with Patrick Sterenchuk

2010-07-14T14:50:00.001-05:00

Want to share some inspiration about the times we are living in NOW and the tools that Patrick offers to help us move through it! He is a dear friend and I am so grateful that he is visiting the Twin Cities so often. You can go to www.whispersofspirit.com/patrick.html for info on meditations and personal sessions. Enjoy!

survey says ....

2010-07-12T22:44:00.000-05:00

Hi blog friends!

Question for you ... are you reading this blog? I AM indeed feeling the pull to write again (finally), but was just curious what YOU would like to see here.

Just business (Crystalline Light) info?
Energy insights about what's happening lately?
Personal processing (oh now come on, you know you like to be a voyeur about other people's "issues", and that is SO okay, it helps us all learn from each other!)
Crystals and stones information?
All of the above?

I really would like to grow this blog even more, get connected to other bloggers (there are already a bunch of you I adore and so thank you for the mutual links!), and grow a spiritual/holistic network of bloggers.

So talk to me. Comment here, comment on fb, just let me know! Merci and gracias~
:)

Happy summer, it's a splendid one and I am soooo grateful for it and YOU!!!!

Summer To Do List

2010-07-07T14:22:00.002-05:00

Remember a few weeks ago I posted a list of summer things I wanted to do? Well, I have done a few of them:

express with truth and love
laugh until I have to pee
blow bubbles with my niece for her to dance through
visit with old friends
get back to my yoga class
hop in my car to travel to new places on the spur of the moment (okay, doing this TOMORROW)
drink in the colors and life of my own urban garden

PLUS I added to the list:

Experience a float tank
Walk more often

But I have not done enough on my list and want to add more ... and then this blog today inspired me to create a POSTER like below! DUH! Yes, I realize is it probably geared towards a family with kids, but I love it.

So I am doing it. I will post a photo of it soon. :)

Dear Blog

2010-06-30T10:25:00.001-05:00

Dear Blog~

Oh how I miss you. I am so sorry I have neglected you of late. Our love is not over by any means, as I would never leave you. I think about you every day, almost every moment when we are not together. A series of circumstances has simply prevented me from visiting with you daily as I so desire. My life outside of you is complex and shifting, lacking inspiration, and in dire DIRE need of a vacation, and yet at the same time, living in the moment and filled with many moments of pure joy. I am torn, since I do wish to share all my experiences with you, but at this time, I feel drained beyond repair (which I know is not true) and am seeking respite, renewal, joy, comfort, and most importantly, summer fun.

It may not be long, and while I am away, if I should happen to find another pretty sparkly blog to commune with, it is not a lack of love for you, it is just a need to expand and see where my Love can flow with more passion.

When the time is right, I will return to you in my full glory and inspiration, transformed back into ME! And we can live happily ever after for eternity together.

Yours truly and forever, with deep gratefulness of all you offer my expression and joy~
Jennifer

Summer Solstice

2010-06-21T14:45:00.000-05:00

Happy Summer Solstice!!

It is a dooooozy of a day! There are so many energies running through me right now that I cannot even start to name or go into them. It is such a potent day on so many levels, and quite amazing we can all function normally. In the next few days I will try to write about it more, because it is taking ALL I have to do just this update. LOL

Just remember, keep breathing, stay in your heart, and don't limit yourself to what you "know." Our experiences and realities are so much more than we can comprehend. And ALLOW yourself to just BE, to experience LIFE (we are human after all, there is so much juiciness to be had, even the "bad" stuff of sitting in a hospital room with your ill mother for the 6th time in 6 months, 3rd weekend in a row), and to PLAY!

EnJOY the summer, EnJOY YOU, and keep shining!!!!
I am SOOOOOO GRATEFUL!!!!

potential

2010-06-18T15:01:00.000-05:00

As I was driving to the healing pines of northern Minnesota today I was hearing information about potentials. There are SO many potentials available right now, and all of them are correct. None of them are 'wrong'. Choosing what feels best for us personally is the only route to go.

And then I read this when I was checking my blogs at the hotel just now:

http://spiritlibrary.com/uriel-heals/the-potential-life

Uriel always is inspiring.

Have a great weekend and happy dad's day!

summer!

2010-06-12T15:56:00.001-05:00

This summer feels like its flying by already, and its not even officially summer for another week!

I want to

hear lots of live music, especially outside at dusk and under the stars with my friends
have a roaring fire bigger than ever out in the middle of nowhere with the people I love
live fearlessly in all ways
visit the Chef Shack as often as possible
create from my heart the deepest imaginings
listen to a chorus of crickets
visit Mickey's Diner, the Lexington, the Children's Museum, the Science Museum & all the other things in my awesome city that I have never experienced yet
be passionate
express with truth and love
take a riverboat cruise on the Mississippi
laugh until I have to pee
meet new people who are creative fun spiritual & open
be free
blow bubbles with my niece for her to dance through
not worry about the What If's
act upon the What If's and discover freedom
experience deep pure authentic JOY
visit with old friends
walk along the river holding his hand
be who I truly am
visit Mr Little Guy
creating health
getting back to my yoga class
be spontaneous in doing new activities around this fantastic city (cities) I live in
hop in my car to travel to new places on the spur of the moment
scream shout dance move shake jiggle jive groove rock out until I fall to the ground
lay in the green grass counting stars
be in the present moment
take my nephews individually to somewhere new
visit the MN Landscape Arboretum and other public gardens
drink in the colors and life of my own urban garden
walk on the north shore beach as close to canada as possible
share all my amazing experiences and truths
get really drunk and not care
explore new places
take more steps to create the business i really want to share
open to new experiences
feel my being explode with happiness

Etcetera etcetera etcetera ...............

I am SOOOOO GRATEFUL!!

Amen, so be it!!

blessings

2010-06-08T14:58:00.000-05:00

My mom had her spleen removed yesterday. It was the final step in her 6+ month journey of spleen lymphoma, and we and the doctor are completely confident that this is IT. My brother and I are just hanging out with mom in her hospital room today, and the above scene - mom on the phone, two nurses doing vitals and pain meds, and my brother crashed out SNORING, oblivious to the activity around him - was just too funny not to share.

And the funny part is, I wouldn't have it any other way. I feel so blessed, so grateful that mom is on her way to health, so grateful that my brother is hanging around longer than I actually am, and so grateful that
we are all together. (Dad was here, had to go back to Atlanta this morning.)

Life is good.

sessions with Patrick

2010-06-04T18:49:00.000-05:00

Yep, been on a little blogbreak, as life is busy and filled with juiciness. Back soon.

But want to share the info about my friend Patrick's next visit ....

New Moon Manifesting Guided Meditation & Channeling in ST PAUL with Patrick Sterenchuk

Friday, June 11
7 - 9:30 pm
$20/person
at private residence in ST PAUL
(near Como Park, address given upon RSVP)
Space is limited, so PLEASE RSVP before June 9 to Jennifer at 651-705-6760 or jennifer@crystallinelight.com (and you need to get the address)
Experience an hour guided meditation, a short break (bring snacks to share, if you wish), and then an hour channeling. The guided meditation will focus on the New Moon manifesting energy.

After our journey, we will have a short break, for snacks and chatting. Then the journey continues, with Patrick channeling a group of beings, consisting of Elders, Enlightened Masters and his own Truest Self. Patrick's laid-back approach to all things spiritual is reflected in his approach to channeling as well. He sees channeling as a group experience...everyone as integral as the next...where active listeners are as important as the messages being shared. Come with an open mind and open heart...you are encouraged to see yourself as an important part of the channeling experience.

From Patrick: "I am going to be in the Twin Cities, from June 10th through June 13th, for two very powerful events that celebrate you, as you are...a perfect manifestation of 'LOVE in the human experience'...while helping you to open to more of your unlimited potential and manifest that potential in your life. Taking advantage of the traditional symbolism, of the New Moon as a manifesting moon, we will explore that power within ourselves...through a special Guided Meditation and Channel Session (and the company of other amazing human beings, eh?).

Folks, who attended the last Guided Meditation/Channeling Event...an experience of healing and attuning to that healing power with ourselves...have shared their very profound experiences with me. I am grateful to have been of service to them. It is my Joy to help my sisters and brothers experience more of their magnificence.

The next three month period is set to be an opportunity for great unfolding through Joy. Many of you have experienced the last 6 to 9 months (even now, a bit, yeah?) as a period of great change and (perhaps) stripping away of the old. If that time felt heavy, this next period is set to open us and expand our conscious choices to live from our Joy and our Freedom...effortless abundance becoming more the norm (Yay!).

These events, the personal sessions I am offering, and my visits to the Twin Cities, throughout the Summer, are a fulfillment of my "Yes!" to live out loud, and to be the conduit and servant that I came to be. I look forward to the opportunity to be of service to you and to your friends. Please check out this event listing, and help me spread the word. Thank you for saying "Yes!" to being on the planet at this time. You are an important reason why we are living in the best time to be alive. Blessings!"

* ~ *~ * ~ PLUS * ~ *~ * ~

PERSONAL INTUITIVE READINGS & HEALINGS
Friday thru Sunday, June 11 - 13
(give or take a day on each end)

Patrick Sterenchuk is offering private sessions while visiting Minneapolis-St Paul. These sessions are a combination of energy healing, intuitive information, and connecting with your own inner guidance.

Session possibilities include:
- Intuitive Readings
- Energetic Healing
- Guided Imagery/Visualization -- Including:
- Past-Life Regression/Future-Life Progression -- Experience, first hand, events from other lives...and gain valuable insights into your current life...
- "Reconnect" -- a wonderful opportunity to bypass the psychic and have a personal experience with a deceased loved-one...all through the power of you...
- "Checking In" -- a personal, one-on-one experience with your own spirit guides, angels, etc.

Contact for appointments & pricing:
http://www.facebook.com/patrick.sterenchuk
563-580-9779
omtattva@gmail.com

Patrick Sterenchuk is a Spiritual Teacher, Intuitive Guide, and Healer who is visiting from Dubuque, Iowa. For 17 years, Patrick has helped people to live more fulfilling lives. Patrick's practice involves spiritual guidance, intuitive work, energetic healing work, meditation instruction, guided imagery work (including past-life regression), and Laughter Yoga.

Patrick has been intuitive since he was a small child. Over the years, and through his profession, he has refined his skills so well that he is easily able to put his personal beliefs aside and is able to focus on the energy of you.

When he reads for you, the intention he sets is of the upmost vibration. It's not about fortune telling, telling you what you are doing wrong in your life, or telling you only what you'd like to hear.

"The intention he sets is to assist you in connecting with your higher self, so that you may receive exactly what is needed in that moment, the information your highest self wants you to know so that you may live out your most joyous life." -- Pam E. (N. America)

PLEASE feel free to invite your friends and share this information with others!! Thanks~
Information to share is also at http://www.whispersofspirit.com/patrick.html

Golden Opportunities

2010-05-26T11:29:00.000-05:00

Today's daily video from Doreen Virtue is timely ... Golden Opportunities

Doreen puts videos up every day of a new card, and most of the time I don't pay attention. Today, I HAD (pushed by "them") to watch it for some reason, took the time to look it up, and then just laughed. I certainly have golden opportunities popping up right now, in so many ways, and I am so grateful. A lot of little things are lining up, the timing of things is finally opening up just a little bit, and I can feel this gentle push out of the nest. "They" know that I need it gentle, I will NOT go kicking and screaming and sudden, I have had enough of that! There is a sense of a slow leak in a tire, this little squint of air flowing to wherever it needs to. It's not just for me, it's on a global level for so many people. After last week's energetic crash on Wed/Thur, this is a welcome relief.

So grab it up, hang on, and ask for help! And then watch the magic unfold!!

go big or go home

2010-05-24T10:49:00.000-05:00

It's TIME.

It's time for us to step up into our true path in this life.

It's time to GO BIG OR GO HOME.

This blog today was my reminder. Trillium's are probably my favorite flower, usually the first to bloom, deep in the woods under the big trees. They show off their big beauty without hesitation and with deep glory. They know how to SHINE.

So are you ready to GBGH?

Breaking Free

2010-05-19T21:44:00.000-05:00

Lauren is a rockstar in my world. She can so eloquently write up what I'm feeling. So instead of writing my own updates, I'll just keep posting hers for you.

Read the new one about breaking free here.

LOVE love love it.

Laters ~ love and freedom to you all!!!

my heart is filled with Love

2010-05-17T22:22:00.001-05:00

No matter what life brings, my heart is always filled with Love.

Even if I criticize myself for not speaking, not being a good listener, for hiding, or for not shining my Light, my heart is always filled with Love.

I am so blessed by so many people, in the past, in the Now, and will be in the Future. And my heart is filled with Love.

My friends of old and for those I felt like have 'wronged', judged, criticized, pissed me off, acted not in integrity, my inner being knows you were a teacher and a mirror, my Being is always open to connect again, in a new way, and my heart is filled with Love.

For my Self, my experiences, my life choices, even if you don't feel you understand Me or my Life, my heart is deeply filled with LOVE.

I am open to your Love, to the Love of the Universe, to all that Life and God and Breath have to offer me, in each moment and in each Now, on every level of reality and dimension, there is no separation and we are One in Love.

You are Love and Loved.

And I am Love.

Now and Always, in ALL way.

self care club

2010-05-17T11:28:00.001-05:00

I am choosing to live from Self Care in all moments. This means I am honoring myself, as well as others, by doing what feels best in each moment.

This lovely reminder from Cheryl Richardson popped up today. #8 especially speaks to MY soul. :)

Now back to my puttering ...

:)

sharing

2010-05-16T23:11:00.002-05:00

I had a great weekend. I was honored to spend time with a friend from out of town and a new-er friend, had great sushi, did some awesome healings at a fair, then experienced a fantastic meditation and channeling, among other things. Of course I am tired from all this activity that my body is not accustomed to again (after a long still winter), so I came home and just sat in my garden for a bit to relax and ground. It was a lovely ending to an even better weekend.

And then I wanted to pick up the phone to call a friend I have not spoken to for a quite a while. I wanted to share every detail of the weekend, which we would have normally done with great joy and enthusiasm previously. It was always a highlight of my day when we could mutually share and process our lives. So today it was an odd sensation after not feeling it for so long. It took me by surprise.

In this new paradigm of living from our hearts and doing what gives us joy, it can be a challenge to not follow those impulses. Every cell in my body was ready to talk to her, yet was it my ego that was holding me back, saying, "Oh she hurt you, it would be really weird, you're both not in the same place anymore, etc"? Or was it a moment of clarity that really all we have is this moment and who cares what has happened in the past, it's the past, and if your heart wants to connect, connect.

After hearing in a channeling today about how we need to live in the JOY and LOVE, how we just need to ALLOW rather than "do", do I allow a shift into a new relationship with a friend that isn't on the same page and have essentially let go? As a human in a spiritual experience it's a tough one for me, but I am being open to a new perspective in every single thing, looking for how things can be new and different and better.

Until I figure it out (or not), I am just breathing through it, opening my heart, and allowing what happens to happen.

grateful Friday

2010-05-14T09:25:00.000-05:00

I am feeling just so stinkin' grateful for so much today that it's evolved into a long list....

Today I am grateful for
Blue Sky
Sunshine
Greeeeeeen garden
Spending time with one of my favorite people and soulfriends tonight and Sunday
Spending time with another new friend who is sweet and a powerful healer
Roadtripping to share my work tomorrow
Anemone buds about to burst open, even the overabundance of them
My amazing massage therapist who does not get bored during an hour and a half massage and can make me feel like a new person
The slow but steady upswing with new clients
Making slow but steady progress clearing out my office clutter
The sweetness of life and brightness every time I breathe with my heart open in Love
Realizing that even if I don't have clarity about some things, I can still move forward slowly
Realizing that letting go of the old might FEEL hard, but it is as easy as taking a breath and stating, "Right now I choose differently"
The freedom that comes from choosing differently
Ice cream
Knowing deep in my core that I am okay, I am strong, I am a good person, despite what others may think or say
Feeling okay with being put in potentially uncomfortable positions, because that is where growth and forgiveness comes from
Being an auntie to the most amazing three children I have ever known
Blowing bubbles

I guess that is all for today. Really, I could go on and on ..... :)

use your Voice

2010-05-13T12:01:00.000-05:00

It's not always easy for us to speak our Truth. Some people just naturally can say whatever they want to, not worry about consequences or who they might offend or piss off. Others, including myself, either never know what to say in the moment or are concerned about what impact my words may have on someone else.

Or, I just don't want to share.

Speaking your words is not always the best option either.

Hurt and pain can at times be expressed as anger and judgment, and when those moments come up, I ask myself if expressing those feelings will hurt or help me. I can still express my pain through means of writing or creating or moving my body, rather than verbally speaking to the person or situation that hurt me. As long as it does not stay stuck in my body, we're good.

In the past few months I have experienced deep pain, hurt, grief, sorrow ... all those icky emotions we never want to feel. Loss and change is a constant in life, and most of the time it is easy for me to shift and change, to go with the flow, to adapt.

This time, however, I felt like I got sideswiped out of nowhere, with no logical reasons (mostly, my mom having cancer is one aspect), and with no explanations. The reality, though mainly on very energetic and subtle multi-dimensional levels, was completely different and it was all very calculated and manipulated.

Seeing the bigger picture of this put some things in perspective, but it didn't make it any easier. My grief as a human 3D person was still there. My expression may never be verbal, and I am not sure I need it to be at this point, but I have still expressed it through my blog, through moving my body in new ways, and through deep soul searching and higher guidance.

I found great inspiration in Leonie's blog today, and am so grateful for her on numerous occasions.

It reminded me that my VOICE, while something I have struggled with since I was a child, is just as valid and important as others. I have not had an opportunity to use my voice constructively in my experiences of loss and grief in the past few months. If it comes up, I feel ready and strong to use my voice in a way that will hopefully heal and Love.

My heart is still healing, still in process, but it is opening again, slowly, bit by bit.

I am trusting that it won't get hurt again (though I know it probably will) and TRUSTING that I am always guided to where I need to be in each moment.

I trust that my Voice will be heard in all future experiences, and I CHOOSE to have my voice heard in a new way.

sessions with Patrick

2010-05-12T21:47:00.002-05:00

Yes, we are posting this EVERYwhere, because we Love Patrick and want to share his gifts with you.

My friend Patrick Sterenchuk will be in town this weekend offering intuitive readings and energy healing sessions and a group gathering. Patrick is a Spiritual Teacher, Intuitive Guide, and Healer who resides in beautiful Dubuque, Iowa, and some of you may have met him at the Edge Life Expo in Minneapolis last fall.

For 17 years, Patrick has helped people to live more fulfilling lives. Patrick's practice involves spiritual guidance, intuitive work, energetic healing work, meditation instruction, guided imagery work (including past-life regression), and Laughter Yoga.

Patrick's work really is "new energy", where he is able to take you to a place of empowerment and Light that is a rare quality to find.

Guided Meditation & Channeling with Patrick
Saturday, May 15
2 - 4:30 pm
$20/person
at private residence in St Paul (on Como Park, address given upon RSVP)

PLEASE RSVP to Jennifer at jennifer@crystallinelight.com or Patrick at 563-580-9779.

Experience an hour guided meditation, a short break, and then an hour channeling. From Patrick: "I am pleased to be offering another Guided Meditation Experience. This is a journey of self-discovery and harmony, as we travel to and through beautiful, powerful places of healing, through the creative power of our Imaginations and our natural healing abilities. Regardless of meditation background or visualization skills, everyone can experience moments of healing and profound wisdom."

After our journey, we will have a short break, for snacks and chatting. Then the journey continues, with Patrick channeling a group of beings, consisting of Elders, Enlightened Masters and his own Truest Self. Patrick's laid-back approach to all things spiritual is reflected in his approach to channeling as well. He sees channeling as a group experience...everyone as integral as the next...where active listeners are as important as the messages being shared. Come with an open mind and open heart...you are encouraged to see yourself as an important part of the channeling experience.

It will be a unique experience to connect to yourself and new energies in a new way!

----PLUS----

Private Sessions of Intuitive Readings & Healings
Friday & Saturday, May 14 & 15, 2010

Patrick Sterenchuk is offering Tattva Harmonics sessions at a private residence in Chanhassen on Friday, May 14, and in St Paul (on Como Park) on Saturday, May 15. These sessions are a combination of energy healing, intuitive information, and connecting with your own inner guidance.

Session possibilities include:
- Intuitive Readings

- Energetic Healing

- Guided Imagery/Visualization -- Including:
- Past-Life Regression/Future-Life Progression -- Experience, first hand, events from other lives...and gain valuable insights into your current life...
- "Reconnect" -- a wonderful opportunity to bypass the psychic and have a personal experience with a deceased loved-one...all through the power of you...
- "Checking In" -- a personal, one-on-one experience with your own spirit guides, angels, etc...

Contact Patrick for info at http://www.facebook.com/patrick.sterenchuk.

To set up an appointment for a session, call Patrick 563-580-9779.

PLEASE feel free to invite your friends and share this information with others!! Thanks~

Blessings!!

Mother's Day

2010-05-09T17:01:00.002-05:00

Just over a week ago ... mom and i on the beach!

Yeah, not a great picture, but we were soaking up the sun, maybe a little too much. But Tybee Island, Georgia rocks.

Happy Mother's Day to all Mother's!

Saying Yes

2010-04-21T13:11:00.001-05:00

A close friend and mentor many years ago told me that she and her partner always chose to say YES to any opportunities that came up, no matter what. At the time I didn't really think that was smart, because what if it was something you really didn't want to do? What if it was with stupid people? (This was before I figured out there really are no stupid people in the world.) There was this whole list of "what if's" that went through me. But looking at their life and business, it seemed effortless, abundant, fun, and like they really were on THE path they were meant to be on.

Now, I say YES.

It's not always easy, believe me.

But I figure I have nothing to lose.

Except maybe my ego getting a little bruised once in a while.

But that is why we are here on a human/spiritual path .... to learn.

In January of this year I committed myself to saying Yes to every opportunity that came up. Even if that means, "Yes, I will feel it out if it is a fit for me" and then politely declining. Saying Yes even if it pulls me out of my comfort zone. Saying Yes even when my head was saying, "What the heck?!" (Well, it used other expletives than "heck" really.) I am committed to following my intuition, my gut instincts.

For example: someone who shall remain nameless asked me a few months ago about doing readings at her shop. Ha! Every bone in my body said, "No freakin' way. Tooooo hard!" I am not a "reader." I am intuitive, I get intuitive "hits", I get feelings and energies, and those can't always be translated into words. But I said, "Yep" and left it as "When the time is right it'll happen." (That too is saying YES.)

So then when in the span of a week, two other people asked me about doing readings and another BIG opportunities to do "READINGS" came up, I just shook my head and said Yes.

And then wanted to puke.

(Let's be honest!)

Even as I got to the event to do readings, I wasn't sure what the heck I was thinking by saying Yes. It felt like a big ol' challenge of pushing my buttons (being put on the spot, having to actually speak, AND having to pull intuitive/psychic information out into real words).

BUT ... it all turned out exactly as it was supposed to. And I actually had fun.

!!!!

And I'll go back again.

No matter what we do in life, even if we think it is happening TO us (which it's NOT), we chose it ALL and we said Yes. (But that's another blog lesson for later.)

So I figure we may as well just agree from the get-go, because we already knew it would come to this, right?

Even if we think we "fail" at it or something goes wrong or it just doesn't work out, that is perfect. The act of saying Yes allows you to open up to more freedom, joy, abundance, and yes, learning deep hard lessons at times too. But it's okay. It helps us learn and grow and be fully who we are right now.

AND I have a BIG and VERY much outside of my comfort level (read "wealthy suburban housewives") - event tomorrow that another friend ~~dragged~~ encouraged me into with her. It forced me to step up my business to a whole new level (and it all happened on a new moon last week).

But I am TRUSTING and jumping with my eyes and heart wide open.

So if you hear someone screaming as they fall from the sky tomorrow evening, that'll be me.

Ha!

No wait, if that happens I even said "Yes" to that too.

Onward and upward, y'all!

Big energy shifts!

2010-04-20T16:08:00.000-05:00

Anyone else feeling so NOT grounded yesterday and today? I feel like I have a low-grade headache, kind of like I am going through coffee withdrawl (though I am NOT!), and even a few advil didn't touch it. I keep drinking a ton of water and taking really deep breaths, though I'm not sure either is helping. LOL It feels like there are spaces being shaken loose that have not seen the light of day for eons. There is this vision in my head of God picking me up by one leg and shaking me upside down like a rag doll, waiting for something to drop out. Whatever They want to drop out, I am willing to let it go! And yet at the same time, there is this deep inner blossoming that is so slight and subtle, but I can feel it being watered long and slow. I actually get glimpses of what the energy will be like this summer and I get almost giddy.

I know a lot of this has to do with earthquakes and volcanoes, oh my!

BUT ... these three updates have helped me in the past few days:

http://www.spiritual-transformation.net/Musings/ Dee's astrology insights are so helpful.

http://transmissionsfromhome.blogspot.com/2010/04/recent-radical-cellular-healing.html The Arcturians are my buddies, so this makes sense to me.

http://www.emergingearthangels.com/2010/wings4.20.2010.html And Karen ... oh dear Karen. Always right on.

So keep on rockin' and keep breathing!

friendships

2010-04-18T23:23:00.000-05:00

Make new friends
Keep the old
Some are Silver
and the others Gold

This song that I clearly remember singing in my Brownies troop as a child keeps running through my head. It is just an indication of thoughts I am working through right now. I do have silver friends and gold friends, as well as purpley spotted friends and oooh you're very gray friends. All of them are deeply appreciated and loved. Over my 40 years I have met amazing people and had amazing friendships, some of which lasted 2 weeks, others were just a few years, and god bless them I do actually have good friends that I have known for close to 35 years.

My thoughts this weekend have been about why some friendships work and some don't, or why some last as long as they do and others just fizzle out. There is no rule book we are given as children about how to be friends; it's just taught by example and by trial and error. I'm sure this is all perfect, but sometimes I wonder if we as adults, especially as women adults, hold out on telling each other the truth about what it's really like to have close women friends. We can be so supportive and encouraging and fun and playful, and in the next second, be catty, gossipy, and just plain stupid.

It is sometimes easier to just be with yourself than other people.

But it can suck being alone too.

I am so blessed for the friends in my life right now. I seriously would have lost my mind had two or three of them not been there to listen to me and support me in the past six months. Not only with my mom's health issues, but with big huge energetic and life changes, during which I also lost a few really good friends. It's been really interesting to me to see who has stuck around, asked about my mom's status, offered support while I'm freaking out about another friends actions, been on the phone with me after I had a major emotional breakdown (again), asked if they can come do healing work with my mom, or even just asked the simple question of "How are you?"

Or not.

People are made of different strengths and gifts of how they friendship. The people that I thought would be right there "on the front lines" have vanished, others have stepped up, others have their own life drama's happening, and still others are exactly the same. My expectations have been low, maybe as a brace so I don't get hurt even more. It all makes me feel so selfish at times, thinking about why the friendships changed or what was "wrong" with me that they left my life, but then again, I know part of my journey is to actually care about myself before others.

The grief of losing multiple friends at once has complications I never expected. Being caught in the middle, not really having many answers, and circling around the lost friends is hard on one's heart. It might take a long time to trust again. But I'm dealing by going higher for a new perspective and bigger picture insights and learning to just surrender and be more open with the current amazing friends (and you all know who you are).

I realize this blog may push a few friends away or ruffle a few feathers, but I have needed to say it for myself. I know the right people will stick around. It's not a pity party by any means. There is just a hope that by writing I can heal some things for myself, possibly help others, and maybe even possibly potentially (with no expectations) find a small opening for healing with the friends.

Onward and upward!

new crystals

2010-04-12T16:36:00.000-05:00

New booty available soon ....

After I take a nap ....

spring

2010-04-11T18:29:00.001-05:00

Spring in my garden.... smell-o-web doesn't work so well.

Nothin' else to share at the moment. Lots of 3D life and so-beyond-3D life happening.

Lots of love to all!

SARK inspirations

2010-03-30T11:33:00.000-05:00

Do you know SARK? If you don't yet, you should.

She rocks.

I can remember the moment I found her very first book about 15+ years ago, sitting on the bottom shelf in the very first Barns & Nobles in the Twin Cities, while I was with my college friend Krista. It changed the course of my life. Seriously. So much of my life has been influenced by her books and words and gatherings. She is inspiring to the 80th degree. She is honest, funny, caring, eccentric, loud, divine, and a creative goddess.

SARK is presenting her very first live teleclass series, called Dream Boogie with SARK: Dancing Your Way from DREAming to DOing! I have participated in various programs with her and they are all so wonderful and worthwhile!

DO check it out, you won't regret it! SPRING is a perfect time to spring into something new and fun!!!

quick update

2010-03-28T16:11:00.000-05:00

Hey just a quick little update, since a few people expressed concern after my last post.

Life is okay. Really, despite being a caregiver for mom during her cancer, I feel pretty balanced and ... okay. I could totally go into the pain and challenges of what's happening with it all, but there really is no point. We just take one day at a time and go with the flow. Each day is a new day, we just go with how life or her body is feeling, and we know that eventually there will be pure health, vitality, and wholeness again. She recently spent 3 days in the hospital because of superlow white blood count, so there is a hyper-aware state that I'm in to keep her as healthy as possible. I won't get into details of her current state, but she has her last chemo session this Friday (April 2, starting at 9 am until about 3 pm, so ALL prayers and distance healing work is very much appreciated), then we regroup to see how much of the tumor is left and if there are other options to move to afterwards. We are pretty thankful for all the great staff and doctors at Unity and the clinics and everyone offering prayers and healing until we are through all this crap. (Even though its crap, we are all learning a heck of a lot!)

BUT ... despite all this, I am still working behind the scenes on a few new things for Crystalline Light and Whispers of Spirit. I am offering energy healing sessions at Spirit River in Anoka by appointment and have a few products there (more are coming soon), there are a bunch of new classes scheduled, new jewelry is being created, new services are being coming, and I really do feel a new state of being and expansion for Crystalline Light. I just need TIME to get it all together. I am not exhibiting at any local Metro expo's or shows any longer, though there might be one or two small events this fall where I'll be. There are smaller shows I am travelling to all over the midwest, so keep an eye out for me there. If you want to shop in person, just contact me for an appointment to come to my home office.

I so so so appreciate all my friends and facebook fans and supporters, and know that eventually business and life AND my blog will be "back on track" into something new and amazing.

Rock on, my friends!!

the road to fridley ....

2010-03-22T10:47:00.000-05:00

The phrase, "the road to Fridley is paved with good intentions" keeps running through my head, as I make a much too often - like daily - trip to Fridley. This weekend its to the hospital to see my mom, who is hospitalized so her white blood count can get boosted up. This chemo business takes a toll on her spleen and body and mind. But Unity has been a good place, even if we know it all too well from years of visiting with my grandpa, my grandma, and now mom.

We had to take her to the ER on Sunday morning at 1:30 due to a rising temp, a sign of infection. So after an hours sleep due to my birthday celebration out with friends, we hightailed it up there, and discover that the ER in Fridley on a Saturday night/Sunday morning is much busier than one would expect. She got boosted up via fluids and antibiotics, but they still admitted her for a few days. She gets a blood transfusion this morning, since her platelets are really low too. First time. She's a trooper, even if she is scared and unsure and alone. But she's at the best place she needs to be, and as soon as I get there this morning I am checking with the lovely Cancer Center about someone doing Reiki or aromatherapy with her (they do have volunteers, but I don't remember if they offer them to patients who are admitted). Unfortunately our trip to Atlanta and Savannah GA for this week is postponed too.

Anyhow, this is my current state of life. And it's okay. I am learning to go with the flow so much more, really appreciating the health I do have, and seeing that each moment really is precious. Surround yourself with those people and things you love. Be grateful! And stay centered in Love.

my interview on Cirkla!

2010-03-17T20:35:00.001-05:00

THANK YOU AMY!! :)

slowly .... spring

2010-03-14T21:18:00.000-05:00

March Email Newsletter

2010-03-10T22:41:00.001-06:00

Crystalline Light Current
March 2010

Yep, time flies.

Luckily the energies of March are feeling a little lighter. Sure, we're still plowing through lots of stuff, but I think I have just come to accept that this "processing" will just be an ongoing thing. There is a feeling of anticipation in the air, like we all know something is coming, but we are not sure what that is just yet. It could be global (more earthquakes or natural disasters) or personal, but either way it is part of the divine plan of moving ourselves into more truth, light, and being HERE now. It is so important to really anchor IN right now ... anchor into the earth, into OURSELVES, into our deepest core of who we are. Get rid of all the external stuff that doesn't have meaning, find those things that give you joy and passion (even if you don't really truly feel it just yet), and learn to go with the current of what feels good in each moment. Life can be hard, as we all know, and struggling and fighting things just makes it all the worse. Going with the flow brings a certain amount of freedom, and once we have cleared through our old emotions and beliefs, there is an unlimited possibility for more life and growth and thriving. Whoo hoo!

But let's get through it first. If you feel a need to learn or gather with others to discuss what's happening or to support each other, let me know.

Just a few updates below. I am grateful to be offering a few new things at my friend Tammy's new shop and community center in Anoka. Come check it out.

Amethyst BioMat & Multi-Dimensional Healings
at Spirit River in Anoka
Saturday, March 13

Amethyst BioMat:
The Amethyst BioMat is a healing mat combining 30 pounds of Amethyst crystals with Far Infrared Heat, used to heal on all levels. Its various heat settings promote detoxification, stress reduction, cell regeneration, muscle and joint relaxation, as well as a deeper spiritual and energetic connection and "bump up" in energy. As an FDA approved medical device, it is assisting clients in many ways and we offer sessions with just the Amethyst BioMat or in addition to energy healing or therapeutic massage.

Multi-Dimensional Healing:
MultiDimensional Sessions are a new form of energy healing, bringing you to a new space of higher vibration and clarity. By simultaneously utilizing energy clearing (physically and etherically), Reiki, sound healing, crystals, as well as multi-dimensional angelic and Source energies, you are supporting your own personal intent for growth and are clearing any discordant energies that are not supportive of your highest good. Through discussion and intuitive guidance, my intent is to align you with higher vibrational energies to maintain health and well-being on all levels. I am simply a vessel to channel universal energies to you, to be a sacred witness to your process, and to support you in divine awareness.

You can do a session with JUST the BioMat OR with Multi-Dimensional Healing.

Drop in 10 am - 1 pm

OFFER
PRE-BOOK before Friday, March 12 at noon, at your appointment for $5 off! (Pre-payment by cc required for discount, non-refundable.)
Contact Jennifer at jennifer@crystallinelight.com or 651-705-6760 to pre-book or for info.

Just the BioMat:
15 minutes $20
30 minutes $35

BioMat PLUS Multi-Dimensional Healing:
15 minutes $35
30 minutes $50
(These rates apply to Saturday's at Spirit River only; regular rates vary.)

Spirit River is in downtown Anoka at 2013 2nd Ave, Anoka, MN 55303 www.spirit-river.org

Crystalline Light products are now available at Spirit River in Anoka!
Energetic Mists (a few for now, more are coming)
White Sage (bags & bundles)
BeLove Bath Salts
Chakra Crystal Kits
and a few rose quartz crystals

are available for your purchasing in person!

I am also available by appointment for Multi-Dimensional Healing Sessions, Amethyst BioMat healings, and Crystalline Soul Guidance sessions, Tuesday through Saturday, 10 am - 5 pm.

If you book a full session at Spirit River between Tuesday, March 16 and Friday, March 19, you'll get a discount of $15 (regular fee is $80).

Watch for classes coming soon (I will take requests too), as well as offering readings at Happy Hour Psychic's soon! They offer readings by numerous readers EVERY Friday night, and one of these weeks I will be there.

Interview on Blog Talk Radio
Listen LIVE to an interview I am doing with my friend Amy!

Wednesday, March 17
7 pm

"Host Amy Putkonen interviews guest, Jennifer Salness, about the importance of crystals and understanding the energy shifts of this critical time in history. Jennifer Salness has been a leading force in the Twin Cities metaphysical community for many years. She is currently owner of an online shop called Crystalline Light and creator of a popular online directory and quarterly magazine offering readers a glimpse into their own transformation and consciousness."

Click here to listen!

Next Day

2010-03-04T13:19:00.001-06:00

And Today ...

is a better day. I am grateful for friends who offer energywork when really they came to me to get worked on. I am grateful for Aura Cacia Rose Bath Bubbles. I am grateful for friends on "other planes" who check in occasionally to assist etherically or in person. I am really grateful for the quiet but equally grateful that I realized I just need to blast my itunes really loud today. I am grateful for blogs that inspire and uplift me (like this one and this one for the cowgirl). And lordy am I grateful to see the big ol' snowpile in my backyard is slowly diminishing by the hour.

And I am grateful for happy spring flowers.

Even if it makes me miss my friends.

Today

2010-03-03T13:52:00.000-06:00

I am grateful for me.

I don't really even know why, because I am seeing all my flaws and imperfections with big eyes lately. But I know all I really have in this world is ME, so I am starting with 'gratefulness', in hopes that it grows deeper to 'loving' myself. It has been a long winding road to loving and accepting myself, even though many other people can do it so willingly and openly.

So why can't I do the same for myself?

I know without a doubt that I came into this world to learn this One Big Thing. It has been with me since I popped out, and most likely for almost every single other lifetime.

Love is the easiest state of being for me to move into, WHEN it involves other people or events or situations or planetary aspects or whatever. But for myself, not as easy.

So this is where I am at today and what is at the top of my consciousness. I accept myself fully. I love myself, in all my glory and flaws. I release the old me that does not exist any longer. I am open to the New Me that has not quite arrived yet.

And when it arrives, I am having One Big Ol' Party!

March energies

2010-03-02T21:19:00.000-06:00

I know I plug Lauren Gorgo's blog's here a lot, but they really are SO entirely helpful and insightful and could be written directly from my life. Go read it. She's an ascension rockstar.

The past 5 days have been brutal energetically, thanks to the earthquakes and all it has stirred up. Friday night I did not sleep, was in a very neutral, yet "active" state of being. I didn't understand why until mid-afternoon on Saturday when I heard about the earthquake's and then-impending tsunami's. As we talked about it at the Expo I was exhibiting at, 3 other people immediately said, "I didn't sleep either." By Sunday, after I'd slept 12 hours, I still felt like a wrecking ball had hit me, experiencing dizziness, discomfort all over, fogginess, not be able to see straight. I managed to function enough to get to a haircut appointment that was already scheduled, but once home, slept hard for another 3 hours. Monday it started to level out a little bit and I could function a little easier again.

Lots is shifting, loose ends are being tied up, clarity is opening up, and the rollercoaster effect is "on" (feeling good and balanced and okay, and then not so much shortly thereafter).

But ... life happens. It's okay. It's darn interesting to say the least.

cosmic flow of life

2010-02-26T10:13:00.000-06:00

I am eternally fascinated by the cosmic flow of life and what comes and what goes away. It's an ever changing tide and it is a good thing. Not every thing or every one fits with us or our lives all the time. While it is sad to lose friends or jobs or homes you love dearly, it is always for a higher purpose. The divine plan is always at work. As humans we want to keep the things that make us happy in our lives all the time (well, maybe that's just optimistic ME), but nature is always recycling itself, so why wouldn't our own lives do this? Happiness is our birthright, but so is aligning with those things, people, places, etc, that make us truly thrive and live and be HAPPY and joyful.

Aligning from our hearts, from that deep core place of what we know to be our OWN truth, is not always an easy thing. But when you reach that place and choose to live in that space of divine heart, life flows. Eternally and unlimitedly. (Is that a word?)

And who's to say that those things or people you let go of or just faded away years ago don't come back? I've recently had three old friends resurface, one by my choice (guidance), and others by their choice. I am so grateful to have a reconnection, and while we may not be BFFs any time soon (or maybe we will), it is a chance for me to truly look inward and see where my heart is open. It is a gift.

Open your heart, live your life from there, and if something does align or fit for you, let it go.

It'll be okay.

Really, it will.

And while you are crying or grieving or just pissed off at the world, breathe with your heart, know that I have been there with you, and we'll get through it together.

See, that's not so bad, is it?